I Lost A Child And I Feel Desperate

The Story

Hello people, something very unpleasant happened to me and I am here to calm down because I will go crazy with questions:


My husband and I have been married for 3 years. I'm not very young - I'm already 34 and it's time for kids and when I found out I was pregnant I was insanely happy, my husband shone and told everyone.


I read all the tips on the internet and changed all my habits for a healthier life. But at the end of the 3rd month, I lost it and this triggered a lasting depression, insane guilt, and despair.
All my friends have children and I don't know anyone who has had this happen to them. My mother-in-law keeps asking me what I ate in the last week before the abortion, not to lift heavy weights, and claims that she doesn't know anyone who loses a child for no reason. She hints to me that I'm not 20. She already had 2 healthy children at 23 ... I don't get sympathy from my parents either. And they try to convince me that I am the cause of the loss.


I don't know what to do, I don't know how to convince at least myself since I can't convince them that I'm not guilty. I read that there were many women who have it happen, but everyone around me is lucky, with a smooth conception and birth.


I was not lucky enough to meet love early and now I am suffering. My biological clock is ticking faster and faster, and for the next pregnancy I don't know if I will have the courage.

Last Updated
July 07, 2020
Author:
nicole_thiago

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