I Lose Myself, I Lose Him Too.

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Hello. I am a 17 year old girl. I have a friend for 4 months. I will start from the beginning ... my parents are divorced, my father lives in another country with his wife and sister (I am 4 years old. Because I did not feel well in Bulgaria, I went for my father's summer vacation and so I stayed. At first it was difficult for me to learn a language and so on, but later I got used to it, then I realized that my father's wife didn't like me very much, she always attacked me (I was 12), insulted me extremely severely and hit me, and my father didn't say anything. he even sometimes blamed me for the situation, I was also to blame because I was very emotional, I had no friends there and I stayed at home all day and my father worked all the time, this woman inflicted very serious mental trauma on me. 2 years later, after a scandal with the woman in question (while I was talking to my mother on Skype), my mother took my first ticket to Bulgaria. When I got home, a number of problems started, such as high blood pressure, depression, sleep paralysis, depersonalization and nightmares. I went to a psychologist and stabilized. I had a friend for 1 year and I was very attached to him. I had 2 girlfriends. I have been with them since I was a child, they were my support. I broke up with the boy and went to the sea to work so I could make some money for myself. Six months later, I met my current boyfriend, Victor. He is an extremely smart man, caring and funny. Our first meetings were wonderful.

Then he told me that theirs had a chain of stores and that they were wealthier (I'm far from their capabilities), he always paid the bills and many times I made a remark to him, that I don't always like him to pay and once I've decided to get something I can afford it. In the beginning we had a lot of character clashes. He started checking my phone (I don't have that right). He took me away from my girlfriends (the only ones), constantly told me that I didn't appreciate anything and that if he continued like that he would go to his ex, go to discos and hide from me. I secretly made a SnapChat on my old phone and followed it. He never allows me to express myself and express an opinion, and for me this is of great importance, because if I do not share my opinion with my closest person, then with whom? I like him very much, I would even say that I love him. I feel at ease with him when we're not arguing. He always makes me apologize to him, even if I'm not guilty. I will give you an example: Lately, when I find myself in situations where I need to talk to someone to cry (as I said, I'm quite emotional and my past weighs on me), I naturally called Victor, but he didn't pick me up a few times. He finally picked me up and asked me what had happened because I was crying. I told him that I was depressed again (he was well acquainted with my past) and that it was difficult for me and that I wanted to talk to someone for a while and he was obviously annoyed and said he was drooling and hung up.

I called him again in 1-2 minutes and he was talking to someone. I was extremely sick because if I talk to someone I am asked who and how to send a screenshot. Anyway, I got up and we quarreled. Why had I thought only of myself, had I not thought that he had not slept (to play on his computer) and was not well. I didn't rate anything! I was very ungrateful. He insulted me many times when we fought. What annoys me the most is that I don't have the right to express an opinion, he says "let's talk, listen to me" and a list begins of what he did for me and I do nothing (it's not true, I'm next to him when he's sick to make him feel better, I bring him his favorite food, on weekends I get up early to go to them and wake him up to surprise him, I have never and would not cheat on him, I take care of him and not from obligation and because I like it to be good I have never hinted at what I do for him) and I feel underestimated. He tells me that I was a monster, that I am fat (60 kg 1. 63), that I am unhappy, I have heard the same from my father's wife and it hurts a hell of a lot. I really love him for these 4 months I became very attached to him. I don't have anyone to talk to ... I don't have anyone to share with because I don't have girlfriends anymore. I want to somehow explain to him that I am also a person with the right to an opinion, but alas, when I started with this, it became scary ... It hurts a lot, I needed to pour all this. It may not seem like much to you, but I experience it a lot ... it hurts a hell of a lot, he is my only one, and I'm not very social and I only have him, if he leaves me he will collapse .. I'm scared I'm really scared. P. with Thank you very much for reading my story, I'm sorry if there are any mistakes (certainly there are, but my keyboard sucks. Please apologize and don't attack me for that.) I want to somehow explain to him that I am also a person with the right to an opinion, but alas, when I started with this, it became scary ... It hurts a lot, I needed to pour all this. It may not seem like much to you, but I experience it a lot ... it hurts a hell of a lot, he is my only one, and I'm not very social and I only have him, if he leaves me he will collapse .. I'm scared I'm really scared. P. with Thank you very much for reading my story, I'm sorry if there are any mistakes (certainly there are, but my keyboard sucks. Please apologize and don't attack me for that.) I want to somehow explain to him that I am also a person with the right to an opinion, but alas, when I started with this, it became scary ... It hurts a lot, I needed to pour all this. It may not seem like much to you, but I experience it a lot ...

it hurts a hell of a lot, he is my only one, and I'm not very social and I only have him, if he leaves me he will collapse .. I'm scared I'm really scared. P. with Thank you very much for reading my story, I'm sorry if there are any mistakes (certainly there are, but my keyboard sucks. Please apologize and don't attack me for that.) and I'm not very social and I only have him, if he leaves me he will collapse .. I'm afraid I'm really afraid. P. with Thank you very much for reading my story, I'm sorry if there are any mistakes (certainly there are, but my keyboard sucks. Please apologize and don't attack me for that.) and I'm not very social and I only have him, if he leaves me he will collapse .. I'm afraid I'm really afraid. P. with Thank you very much for reading my story, I'm sorry if there are any mistakes (certainly there are, but my keyboard sucks. Please apologize and don't attack me for that.)

Last Updated

August 14, 2020

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freddier

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Published on: August 14, 2020

Honey, if he leaves you, he'll do you a HUGE favor, because you obviously don't have the courage to leave him. You'd better be without him. How do you "love" and tolerate a person who treats you so ugly? The same things are repeated as with your stepmother, only this time they come from the boyfriend. This is his mental harassment. He obviously sees that you are insecure and prone to depression, and he uses this to crush you and be his obedient girl. Do you have sex? If you are not yet, by no means let him go, because as you describe him, I think he will treat you in the same way in bed - he will humiliate you and impose complexes on you so that you feel depressed and try to please him. of His Majesty. Is your mother close to you? Do you share with her? Talk to her, at least, because what you're writing sounds serious. I know you'll say how much you love him, but listen to me - leave him and you will find a boy who treats you as an equal, as a partner who listens to you, supports you, pampers you and showers you with compliments instead of insulting you. You'll wonder what you did with this Victor at all. At least judging by what I get from my boyfriend - attention, compliments, gestures, praise for my success, a lot of conversations about the things that excite us and so on ... for me this is normal behavior in a couple, and what your friend is causing you, I wouldn't put up with it one day. You don't have to put up with it, please stop causing it. If you need to share with someone, you can think of an option to exchange coordinates. Bambi You'll wonder what you did with this Victor at all. At least judging by what I get from my boyfriend - attention, compliments, gestures, praise for my success, a lot of conversations about the things that excite us and so on ... for me this is normal behavior in a couple, and what your friend is causing you, I wouldn't put up with it one day. You don't have to put up with it, please stop causing it. If you need to share with someone, you can think of an option to exchange coordinates. Bambi You'll wonder what you did with this Victor at all. At least judging by what I get from my boyfriend - attention, compliments, gestures, praise for my success, a lot of conversations about the things that excite us and so on ... for me this is normal behavior in a couple, and what your friend is causing you, I wouldn't put up with it one day. You don't have to put up with it, please stop causing it. If you need to share with someone, you can think of an option to exchange coordinates. Bambi You don't have to put up with it, please stop causing it. If you need to share with someone, you can think of an option to exchange coordinates. Bambi You don't have to put up with it, please stop causing it. If you need to share with someone, you can think of an option to exchange coordinates. Bambi

Published on: August 14, 2020

Hi, Bambi. I hope you read my comment. I am the author. I have sex with him, yes. I like to be dominated even before I meet him. Many of the things you say are like that and I am sincerely afraid of my situation. It's really hard for me to separate from him. He is my whole daily life. He often behaves normally, but when he's not in the mood, he gets it on me. I find things from his exes. He treated all his girlfriends the same way (I knew one of them). Everyone is looking for him from personal numbers and asking him for forgiveness. It happened that he called me very drunk and explained to me how much he loved me and that he had not done for anyone what he did for me. I'm not really saying he doesn't do things for me, but it hurts me a lot. When he is drunk he says everything to himself. He shares things that weigh on him .... oh I'm confused. I tried to go to the psychologist at school, but she is always busy ... I will try again. As for my mother. She doesn't live with me. I live with my grandparents. I am extremely close with my mother. I would even say that she is more my friend than my mother. Even our mothers know each other. And her mother called his mother and they talked about what Victor was doing to me. And his mother is a very sensible woman and she shared with her husband (his father), and his father defends him ... his mother tried to talk to him but now she found me guilty because I shared my relationship with my mother us. And her mother called his mother and they talked about what Victor was doing to me. And his mother is a very sensible woman and she shared with her husband (his father), and his father defends him ... his mother tried to talk to him but now she found me guilty because I shared my relationship with my mother us. And her mother called his mother and they talked about what Victor was doing to me. And his mother is a very sensible woman and she shared it with her husband (his father), and his father defends him ... his mother tried to talk to him but now she found me guilty because I shared things with my mother from the relationship us.

Published on: August 14, 2020

I Lose Myself, I Lose Him Too.

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