I Like To Talk, Not Listen!

I prefer speaking to listening to others! But I'm furious! For several years I have been in the position of a listener. People, I'm tired of being a passive listener! The stupid thing is that I always decide to show that I am also a mouthful when they have already formed a misconception about me, that I am quiet and passive. I hate loneliness, it annoys me. But I repel people by not communicating much. But what to do when I lost my grandmother (whom I loved very much) right at puberty I was 14 then, and now I'm 20. Why does this still affect me, even though I'm not in puberty? Or if I start sharing a lot I only share bad things and behave rudely. But obviously I have to start like this - I still have a lot of negative emotions that need to come out. And only after I behave badly and say bad things will I start saying good things. Let the pain come out first. When I listen to others talk, I take their problems too personally. Before, when I spoke more instead of listening, I felt better. And the more talkative people succeed more in life. It's better to be unpleasant to someone, instead of being comfortable and being crushed. I'm tired of being a passive spectator and life passing by me. Now I will make the events happen. And even though my classmates are temeruti, I will not comply with this and I will be poisoned, let them accept me as a friend. I think it will be much easier for me to be accepted if I start sharing again. I'm tired of being a passive spectator and life passing by me. Now I will make the events happen. And even though my classmates are temeruti, I will not comply with this and I will be poisoned, let them accept me as a friend. I think it will be much easier for me to be accepted if I start sharing again. I'm tired of being a passive spectator and life passing by me. Now I will make the events happen. And although my classmates are temeruti, I will not comply with this and I will be poisoned, let them accept me as a friend. I think it will be much easier for me to be accepted if I start sharing again.