I Know There's No Way We're Going To Get Together And I Honestly Don't Want That, I Just Want To Move On

The Story

I'm in a black hole and I'm stuck in one place. The more time passes, the more I despair and think that nothing will ever change. Of my friends, I have always been the strongest, I have always been the one who knows how to get out of a situation, how to cope. Yes, but now that I have failed, no one can help me. My story is like any other, common, I just can't get over it and I'm going crazy more and more. My boyfriend and I lived together for three years, after which we separated. The reasons are not important. According to our mutual friends, we just loved each other too much to survive next to each other. Almost two and a half years have passed since then. He got married this summer and his wife is pregnant. We don't see each other, but when that happens we get along well with each other, at a distance, of course, but still ... polite. The thing is that after our separation he managed to continue his life, and I did not. I tried to start a relationship, but it didn't work. And no man provokes any thrill in me. I still keep his things, I'm not ready to throw them away, I think about him, about us all the time and it hurts so much, so much. Is there a recipe for this For two and a half years I seem to be devoid of any feelings, but today when I saw him with his wife ... with his very pregnant wife ... He just came and greeted me, then I felt him again, my hands were shaking and sweating, a ball forms in my stomach, etc. You know how it is. Only he makes me feel that way. I want to deal with this whole situation, and I want a family, a child, but it's been so long and I still can't recover. Does it ever pass? Do pain and love go away? Am I able to love again? He can, why can't I? The whole story is stupid, I know, but I just want someone to show me the way, give me sensible advice, what to do, how to forget, and so on.

Last Updated
October 30, 2020
Author:
gonzalo

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