I Hope You Will Be Relieved After Sharing With You And Help Me.

Hello, everyone! I will try to explain briefly what has been happening to me in recent years and how I am starting to live more and more day by day ... I am an 18-year-old boy and I am in 12th grade. When I started 9th grade, I decided that I wanted to be different and live the way I liked. I started exercising regularly and going to the gym because it was my thrill, my flame. I trained hard, ate forcibly because I wanted results and went to bed not too late. At the same time, my worldview began to change. I realized that I wanted to do things that were important to me in life and one day achieve something significant for me. So I started reading various articles, books, I became interested in business. I talked to everyone. Everything is okay, but the moment came when I saw a girl and fell in love with her because she was different and to note that we were 15! Yes, however she liked me as a friend, but I was madly in love with flowers and gifts, and I tried to write poems to her, I tried to behave like adults. And so 1 year in a pathetic attempt to show her my love for her, she finally decided to try. We went out there, here. We did all sorts of things. I was constantly with her and a moment came when it started to burden me. I give an example: I get up early in the morning, cook, I will help my parents with the housework, see her and go to school (2nd shift). In the evening I hurry home, eat something quickly and immediately go to the gym (there was a period of time in which I trained and kickboxing because I really wanted to), so if I'm not in the gym, I'm in kickboxing and after training I hurry to go to her , and my parents had imposed an evening class because I was not an adult until 22:30, 23: 00 at the latest and I have to take this into account. And so for months. However, if summer came and I went to sea with ours and for the whole vacation I didn't do much, because I enjoyed lying in bed because I don't remember when I last did it and I was happy, it was something divine for me. When I got home, I decided that she was too good a girl and I was not for her because I would slap things or I didn't want to hurt her. I told him too, but she was very hurt and my heart was breaking, but I gritted my teeth because I thought it would be better that way. A few days passed and I quickly forgot and went back to my previous life, pushing, reading, seeing some friends. I achieved great results in the gym and reached the national powerlifting competition, as for the first time I managed to pull 185 kg of deadlift and became 3rd. I also helped organize the event itself. I was very proud of myself and I felt wonderful. I also helped many acquaintances in the hall by pissing them off what I knew, sharing with them, outside the hall I was very motivated and supported my friends in every endeavor. So I motivated them as if they had reached into the socket and were charged with energy, I felt great. However, after that, my girlfriend started writing to me and they felt back, but stronger than ever. When we went out to see each other, I went crazy over her again, she was crazy about me and we got together again. Since then we have started to be together 24/7 and everywhere. My parents told me to stop playing with a family from such a young age and to give each other a break, personal space, but we didn't listen to them. I gave up training, reading and all things which I had intended to do. It's been almost a year. I promised myself to start again with the gym, but I feel crushed because I lost weight and lost a lot of weight. And the flame is always gone, I'm always tired, I have no motivation, no desire. Months ago, my girlfriend and I were constantly arguing because I hadn't talked to her, I hadn't done something right, and that squeezed me further. It's as if I have no desire for anything anymore, I feel like it's like life is over for me, and now it has to start ... People tell me what happened to you, it's not you. I'm used to this girl, we're fine together, the thrill is not like in the beginning now, but we still love each other. I'll stop there and I really tried not to write much, but obviously it didn't work out. because I lost weight and lost a lot of weight. And the flame is always gone, I'm always tired, I have no motivation, no desire. Months ago, my girlfriend and I were constantly arguing because I hadn't talked to her, I hadn't done something right, and that squeezed me further. It's as if I have no desire for anything anymore, I feel like it's like life is over for me, and now it has to start ... People tell me what happened to you, it's not you. I'm used to this girl, we're fine together, the thrill is not like in the beginning now, but we still love each other. I'll stop there and I really tried not to write much, but obviously it didn't work out. because I lost weight and lost a lot of weight. And the flame is always gone, I am always tired, I have no motivation, no desire. Months ago, my girlfriend and I were constantly arguing because I hadn't talked to her, I hadn't done something right, and that was squeezing me further. It's as if I have no desire for anything anymore, I feel like it's like life is over for me, and now it has to start ... People tell me what happened to you, it's not you. I'm used to this girl, we're fine together, the thrill is not like in the beginning now, but we still love each other. I'll stop there and I really tried not to write much, but obviously it didn't work out. I hadn't done something right and that was squeezing me further. It's as if I have no desire for anything anymore, I feel like it's like life is over for me, and now it has to start ... People tell me what happened to you, it's not you. I'm used to this girl, we're fine together, the thrill is not like in the beginning now, but we still love each other. I'll stop there and I really tried not to write much, but obviously it didn't work out. I hadn't done something right and that was squeezing me further. It's as if I have no desire for anything anymore, I feel like it's like life is over for me, and now it has to start ... People tell me what happened to you, it's not you. I'm used to this girl, we're fine together, the thrill is not like in the beginning now, but we still love each other. I'll stop there and I really tried not to write much, but obviously it didn't work out.