I Hit A Strange Bird

The girl I'm in love with is 18, and I'm two years older than her. We've known each other for a long time, certainly more than three years, they can tend to four already, I'm not very sure. My problem with her is that she drives me crazy in every aspect of our relationship. But most of all, it drives me crazy that she doesn't seem to know if she wants to be with me or not. I'm sure I attract her visually, and we are good friends, but we haven't been boyfriends, nor are we now, and I don't know if we will ever be. From the very beginning, when we met, I did not allow her to perceive me only as a friend, as a brother or something like that. I told her I liked her and wanted to be more than just friends or acquaintances. However, she then came up with some excuse not to rush such steps and offered to be just friends, assuring me that I was not the loser in the case, but she. I didn't have a problem with that, I wasn't in love, what's napping ... Right Very, very really soon after she refused to be boyfriends and after a few more dates, we found ourselves in her apartment and later we just didn't have sex, but the air was heated by passion. After that, I don't know how long I didn't hear or see her. Eventually we ran into each other and started seeing each other again as friends. It became clear to me that he clearly did not want the incident to happen again. And I had really given up on the idea of ​​having a relationship with her. A long time later, we became really close and one night she "attacked" me in the park. We got hot again, but we stayed next to kisses and colorful hands. The next day we saw each other, but she was super distant and I got a little angry with her. And how come there isn't? He kisses me once, then pretends to hold my hat ... Not to tell you everything, I will just say that things are still in this form. I will also note that I was her first, but even then there would be no connection. Now from time to time something pike her again, we have sex, then - we are still very good friends. So what is it now? I do not understand anything from her behavior. It is clear to me that she wants me physically, otherwise she will not come to me. But since we are also good friends, and she likes sex, why don't we get married? If she was drunk doing something, I would tell myself that alcohol affects her, but it's not. Drugs are absurd. This is her pure desire, but she doesn't seem to want to admit her attraction to it. And I don't understand why! I'm not a model but I have some satisfying charm. I take care of my body. If we are friends, then my character is fine. I'm not a scoundrel or a bandit, nor any game maniac. I don't think I'm a loser. And the biggest problem of the whole thing is that I fell in love with it. That it can without drama? And since I have some deeper feelings for her, it's a little difficult for me to perceive her behavior. It's not like I didn't ask her after the first time if she wants us to be more than friends. The regular answer is that he doesn't want a relationship right now. And the moment when he will want does not come. I don't know what to do with her. I tried to replace her with another girl, but I can't. There is just chemistry between us and no chemistry with the others. I don't want them that way. I want to be with her, and she keeps running. What is he so afraid of? Are there people with guesses? That it can without drama? And since I have some deeper feelings for her, it's a little difficult for me to perceive her behavior. It's not like I didn't ask her after the first time if she wants us to be more than friends. The regular answer is that he doesn't want a relationship right now. And the moment when he will want does not come. I don't know what to do with her. I tried to replace her with another girl, but I can't. There is just chemistry between us and no chemistry with the others. I don't want them that way. I want to be with her, and she keeps running. What is he so afraid of? Are there people with guesses? That it can without drama? And since I have some deeper feelings for her, it's a little difficult for me to perceive her behavior. It's not like I didn't ask her after the first time if she wants us to be more than friends. The regular answer is that he doesn't want a relationship right now. And the moment when he will want does not come. I don't know what to do with her. I tried to replace her with another girl, but I can't. There is just chemistry between us, but not with the others. I don't want them that way. I want to be with her, and she keeps running. What is he so afraid of? Are there people with guesses? and with others no. I don't want them that way. I want to be with her, and she keeps running. What is he so afraid of? Are there people with guesses? and with others no. I don't want them that way. I want to be with her, and she keeps running. What is he so afraid of? Are there people with guesses?