I Have The Feeling That I Will Die Alone

The Story

Hello. I'm 22 years old. I use this site because I have never enjoyed sharing these things with my friends. The title says it - I feel like I'm going to die alone. Yes, it's true - I'm only 22 years old, life is yet to come, more difficulties, joys, happiness, misfortunes ... and everything, even in larger doses. But lately, something is wrong with women. At the same time, however, I can say that I am not an unhappy person at all - on the contrary. I'm quite cheerful, I dare say happy. I study, work, train, go out, have friends ... I have friendly companies to have fun with, to relax, to feel alive. I sometimes have fun with alcohol, although I already feel a lot, a lot calmer than before ... a lot. But boyfriends are missing, connections are missing. Since I broke up with my girlfriend 2 years ago, things haven't been going well. Lately, I think it's like she did magic to me. Whether she, whether she cursed me with her bright eyes or someone else. This is a joke, but to some extent still. Wherever I try to take down a girl, it doesn't work. From 3-4 years mostly dating, here and there (I admit rarely), relationships like friends with privileges. But until then. That I even forgot what it's like to go on a date with a woman, to have a first date, to talk, to get to know each other, a second date, etc ... And I don't know if that's how I was brought up, but I've always been a gentleman. Others notice it, I'm not saying that. And apart from women, I really appreciate my friends and relatives and I make some presents here and there, some kind gestures, etc. However, this is clearly not the case. I don't want to brag about that at all, I just want to point out that I'm not a womanizer, I think we should treat women with respect, with compliments. Abe, I want to say that I am a good person, I have been like that over the years, I am like that now and I want to stay like that, not to treat women badly, because the truth is that some women (at least) when you crush them and you don't behave well, they listen and like you - a confession from a girl. It's been born lately, let's not call it fear, but it's a question of whether I'm not going to die alone. In general, the daily routine of 2-3 years has surrounded me tightly. Like I said, work, education, training, friends. By no means do I want to convey that I recommend for the mother to be inactive, but that she should have paid less attention to her friends. I have no idea in the comments if there will be advice, laughter and ridicule, examples, I just had to share it. For two weeks now, when I'm alone, I've been pouring two or three glasses of alcohol and lighting cigarettes, I'm nervous. I don't feel as cheerful as I used to.

Last Updated
September 20, 2020
Author:
fnx_fit

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