I Have Such A Big Family And I Feel Alone

The Story

I am 23 years old, so my story is not just another teenage fabrication. I've been dating a 3-year-old boy. We are not poor, but we cannot get 50 thousand. to buy a house in a pile, and I DON'T WANT to commit to a loan. He makes me live in them ... But his family is AWFUL. His father is not his real father, he has a younger sister just in his teens, and his mother, no matter how hard I try to like her, I can't. I dare not leave anything in them, because they touch everything. From sanitary napkins to my socks, my dirty socks take them, wash them and wear them in front of me without any worries. His sister is terribly annoying, she stays with us all the time, my friend chases her, but she turns to him and says "I will stay to keep you company". His mother is the biggest failure as a mother. She can't cook, she can't clean, she is lazy and she is very mean. At first glance, she looks very nice, but I'm constantly affected. One example: I was going to make I pie and because there was no carbonated water (there is never anything in them, not even sugar for your coffee!) And it was raining outside, I called tomorrow I will make it and buy gas. water. Yes, however, she told me "Well, why did you start making a pie when you can't" O_O and I explain like a normal person that it rains, there is no water, etc. and she told me I'll go, as I'm bored. .. And it turns out very stupid because she will go just to humiliate me. I took an umbrella, not that it made sense, I went to the store and came back, but my friend had to go to work urgently and because he has a car, but his father does not have it and literally took his and I drove it. I'm coming back, she drank the soda ... that's if it's not on purpose. Another example: I constantly drive her to the village and because "her husband" is too lazy to come and pick her up and she always carries some rubbish and gets the car dirty a lot, but I don't tell her anything. Once, when she left the village, she wanted to take two hens, she was going to slaughter them in the city, and I told her that they would get a lot dirty to slaughter them here, and she replied, "I don't have time," but I was fed up and said no. to take them and she left the hens DON'T KILL THEM but started sweeping the yard, I asked her when we were going to leave because she and I were in a hurry and she replied "I still have work to do, I have to do it". I can give you many more examples of it. While we have sex with my boyfriend, she enters the room without even knocking, sits on HIS laptop and rummages through the net ... This is only a small part of what I want to write, so if you don't read better, stop here. His father is the biggest breadwinner in the world, he only knows how to shout give me this, give me that, do this, do that. I'm like a taxi for his family. He lay down, put his feet on the table, and my friend's mother called to pick her up from work, and he looked at me and said with kind eyes, "Are you going to pick her up," and I didn't say anything the first few times , but once it happened that I didn't have gas, I only had enough to go home and I told him I didn't have gas and he called me "isn't that how you won't go and come back". When something is not his cry and insults a lot. He insults his wife with very ugly words "Merla, idiot, goat ..." and that in front of his daughter without worrying. He ruined my friend's car, smashed it and folded it everywhere, and didn't even bother to return it to him soon. I have nothing to say about his friend's sister, she is a one-to-one copy of her mother. My friend is a completely different type of person, as if he is not from their family. During the short time we are alone, he behaves great with me. I've told him a thousand times how hard it is for his family to treat me like that, he remarks to them, once we quarreled again over his mother and he defended her. I felt super naughty, but in the end I can't make him choose between me and his family. I was between a rock and a hard place and I know what it is. All his grandparents, aunts, relatives, etc. like me very much and treat me well, but his parents and sister are AD. His work is very hard and he slows down a lot during the day and the only time we can see each other is in the evening after 12:00 when theirs fall asleep and he stays almost every night until 1:00, 2: 00 awake because of me and gets up at 7:00. I don't know how to act. However, this is only a small part of the things I want to share with someone, but no one. I had so many friends, and now I have only one and she is in Greece. Lately we have been arguing a lot, and all the time there are serious scandals, and I roam the city like an owl at night and wonder who to go to and who to talk to, and every time I find out that I have no one to talk to. My family is the typical average family. My mother is a terribly good person. She cooks great and that's one of the reasons my friend and I only eat at home. My mother is very calm and patient, she takes care of us, my father. I once saw them arguing over money. However, I don't have this relationship with my mother like the other girls, I can't sit down and talk to her about relationships with boys or sex. My sister is in 6th grade, so I'm writing her off. My father is a strange person. He gives me everything, what I didn't ask for, he didn't buy it for me, but on the other hand, everything comes out threefold. When we gather somewhere at a table or as a guest and he starts explaining how we harassed him, how we strained him and just spent his money, we didn't give him anything, it's good that he was, otherwise we were lost. And this is not true, everything he bought me he bought it with desire and pleasure, I never drove it by force and I never shook like a little baby for something. He likes to humiliate us and make fun of us, not in any rude way, but he does. When they break me on an exam and he starts talking about how you only gave the money for education, I didn't think about anything, I just spent his money in front of other people. I can't explain to him, that it's normal to be torn in one or two exams, I can't catch up so fast, provided I'm part-time and working. Don't get me wrong, he's a great father, but he loves to brag. So I have a big family and many acquaintances, but no friends. Many betrayed me and knocked down friends and relatives and I ignored them one by one at one point it turned out that I was left alone. I get together a lot and more and more often I break out in front of my friend and make fun of him. I know it's not right and I wonder how she still tolerates me. I said such a rude word about his mother and he was always silent and said nothing to me. No matter how bad a mother you have, you will not be happy to hear her insulted, and I have insulted her a lot in front of him. I have told him many things in plain text about the relationship between us and my relationship with others. A year ago I had a big problem with my ovaries, but everything went well. I had lost the desire for sex for about 3 months, but he understood me and did not even think for a second to go to someone else and patiently waited for me to take the initiative without him forcing me. We've been doing it less and less since then, whether it's because I'm constantly nervous or because he's tired, I don't know, but somehow I think it's at the bottom of it all. That's why I'm so blown away, tender, nervous and devastated. We love each other very much and neither he nor I want to separate, but I don't know how to solve our problems. Almost every week there are scandals in which I wash my eyes, and he gets nervous to the max and I think he will not last another night like last night. I want us to stop arguing, to separate from our families, and things will fall into place. I have a job at the moment, but it is not serious and very lucrative enough to spend for me. He wanted us to take out a loan, but I am so afraid of this loan and I am convinced that we will totally get out and get stuck if we take out one. Ours are too young to go to the village and leave us the apartment, and theirs do not want to attribute it to him. In my opinion, when it is a boy and a girl, it is right for the apartment to go to the boy. And his sister is only 15 ... His mother and father are building their house in their village, repairing it, but they would live in both places. Is this right? His mother was pushing him with a truck to take out a loan, but he came to his senses and did not take it out. It's very hard for me, very ... Thank you for reading everything, if you have read it. I want advice and help, but that's enough for me, but I just shared it with someone :) Monica, Sh. but it's not serious and very lucrative enough to spend on me. He wanted us to take out a loan, but I am so afraid of this loan and I am convinced that we will totally break down and get stuck if we take out one. Ours are too young to go to the village and leave us the apartment, and theirs do not want to attribute it to him. In my opinion, when it is a boy and a girl, it is right for the apartment to go to the boy. And his sister is only 15 ... His mother and father are building their house in their village, repairing it, but they would live in both places. Is this right? His mother was pushing him with a truck to take out a loan, but he came to his senses and did not take it out. It's very hard for me, very ... Thank you for reading everything, if you have read it. I want advice and help, but that's enough for me, but I just shared it with someone :) Monica, Sh. but it's not serious and very lucrative enough to spend on me. He wanted us to take out a loan, but I am so afraid of this loan and I am convinced that we will totally get out and get stuck if we take out one. Ours are too young to go to the village and leave us the apartment, and theirs do not want to attribute it to him. In my opinion, when they are a boy and a girl, it is right for the apartment to go to the boy. And his sister is only 15 ... His mother and father are building their house in their village, repairing it, but they would live in both places. Is this right? His mother was pushing him with a truck to take out a loan, but he came to his senses and did not take it out. It's very hard for me, very ... Thank you for reading everything, if you have read it. I want advice and help, but that's enough for me, but I've only shared it with someone :) Monica, Sh. He wanted us to take out a loan, but I am so afraid of this loan and I am convinced that we will totally get out and get stuck if we take out one. Ours are too young to go to the village and leave us the apartment, and theirs do not want to attribute it to him. In my opinion, when it is a boy and a girl, it is right for the apartment to go to the boy. And his sister is only 15 ... His mother and father are building their house in their village, repairing it, but they would live in both places. Is this right? His mother was pushing him with a truck to take out a loan, but he came to his senses and did not take it out. It's very hard for me, very ... Thank you for reading everything, if you have read it. I want advice and help, but that's enough for me, but I just shared it with someone :) Monica, Sh. He wanted us to take out a loan, but I am so afraid of this loan and I am convinced that we will totally break down and get stuck if we take out one. Ours are too young to go to the village and leave us the apartment, and theirs do not want to attribute it to him. In my opinion, when they are a boy and a girl, the apartment should go to the boy. And his sister is only 15 ... His mother and father are building their house in their village, repairing it, but they would live in both places. Is this right? His mother was pushing him with a truck to take out a loan, but he came to his senses and did not take it out. It's very hard for me, very ... Thank you for reading everything, if you have read it. I want advice and help, but that's enough for me, but I just shared it with someone :) Monica, Sh. however, I am so afraid of this loan and I am convinced that we will totally break down and get stuck if we take one out. Ours are too young to go to the village and leave us the apartment, and theirs do not want to attribute it to him. In my opinion, when they are a boy and a girl, it is right for the apartment to go to the boy. And his sister is only 15 ... His mother and father are building their house in their village, repairing it, but they would live in both places. Is this right? His mother was pushing him with a truck to take out a loan, but he came to his senses and did not take it out. It's very hard for me, very ... Thank you for reading everything, if you have read it. I want advice and help, but that's enough for me, but I've only shared it with someone :) Monica, Sh. however, I am so afraid of this loan and I am convinced that we will totally break down and get stuck if we take one out. Ours are too young to go to the village and leave us the apartment, and theirs do not want to attribute it to him. In my opinion, when it is a boy and a girl, it is right for the apartment to go to the boy. And his sister is only 15 ... His mother and father are building their house in their village, repairing it, but they would live in both places. Is this right? His mother was pushing him with a truck to take out a loan, but he came to his senses and did not take it out. It's very hard for me, very ... Thank you for reading everything, if you have read it. I want advice and help, but that's enough for me, but I just shared it with someone :) Monica, Sh. In my opinion, when it is a boy and a girl, it is right for the apartment to go to the boy. And his sister is only 15 ... His mother and father are building their house in their village, repairing it, but they would live in both places. Is this right? His mother was pushing him with a truck to take out a loan, but he came to his senses and did not take it out. It's very hard for me, very ... Thank you for reading everything, if you have read it. I want advice and help, but that's enough for me, but I just shared it with someone :) Monica, Sh. In my opinion, when it is a boy and a girl, it is right for the apartment to go to the boy. And his sister is only 15 ... His mother and father are building their house in their village, repairing it, but they would live in both places. Is this right? His mother was pushing him with a truck to take out a loan, but he came to his senses and did not take it out. It's very hard for me, very ... Thank you for reading everything, if you have read it. I want advice and help, but that's enough for me, but I just shared it with someone :) Monica, Sh.

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October 29, 2020
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