Hello! I'm a girl of 22. I've already written here and now I feel the need to share again because I just don't have anyone to talk to. My mother died in August last year. If anyone has read my story, they already know how close we were, they know it was and still is everything to me. I can talk so much about her, and no one. I can write so much, and the words themselves are powerless to express my feelings ... I study, work, do housework, meet people. No one sees my pain, and those who know about it avoid talking to me about it. Even with my closest friends, when I say something in this direction, they only answer "Calm down, everything will be fine." Hell, can't someone say something else, can't they give me a chance to talk at least a little ... It's not to worry that I'm going to get sick, because my closest people know that this is exactly what I need, I told them ... I feel alone. And that's right, because my mother is gone ... I haven't had such feelings for anyone, I haven't been so close to anyone ... She's just gone ... And I don't seem to be there anymore ... It bothers me One more thing. I don't go to her grave. I just don't want to, I don't feel the need, even if the soul continues to exist, it's definitely not there. I talk to her at home or when I'm alone somewhere else. But I don't go to her grave. And I feel guilty, as if in front of others ... I don't want to go there when I go, I do it as if out of obligation. And I keep asking myself, am I a bad person Please tell ... I haven't been so close to anyone ... She's just gone ... And I don't seem to be here anymore ... There's something else bothering me. I don't go to her grave. I just don't want to, I don't feel the need, even if the soul continues to exist, it's definitely not there. I talk to her at home or when I'm alone somewhere else. But I don't go to her grave. And I feel guilty, as if in front of others ... I don't want to go there when I go, I do it as if out of obligation. And I keep wondering, am I a bad person? Please tell ... I haven't been so close to anyone ... She's just gone ... And I don't seem to be here anymore ... There's something else bothering me. I don't go to her grave. I just don't want to, I don't feel the need, even if the soul continues to exist, it's definitely not there. I talk to her at home or when I'm alone somewhere else. But I don't go to her grave. And I feel guilty, as if in front of others ... I don't want to go there when I go, I do it as if out of obligation. And I keep wondering, am I a bad person? Please tell ... I don't want to go there when I go, I do it as if out of obligation. And I keep wondering, am I a bad person? Please tell ... I don't want to go there when I go, I do it as if out of obligation. And I keep asking myself, am I a bad person? Please tell ...
1 thick4long4hard answered
It is normal to feel this way, and it is worse when all your feelings are closed in you and you have no one to talk to, because nowadays it is so difficult to find real people to support you and lend you a hand when you need that. If we could have anything to do with you. I could try to help you.