I Have Never Been Loved By A Man

The Story

Thanks to fate for giving me wonderful parents. I have always felt and still feel their love, no matter how far we have been. I have always received support, but I have never been spoiled. I have been stubborn since I was a child and I wanted to achieve everything on my own without their financial help. I want them to be well and alive and healthy for many years to come. So far so good, but somehow I couldn't sort things out. I can't boast of an enviable career, but I've never aimed for that. For me, finding a suitable partner and creating a cozy family like mine was a priority. Yes, but I've always been involved with the wrong people. It's just a pity to take stock and look back to see that you've just been used. I feel temporarily used. Lied and used. I know now you will say that I choose them. On the contrary, I was never wanted by someone I didn't want. Don't be attracted to me visually or anything. Those who wanted me, I wanted them too. In the beginning everything is fine, emotion trembles and then everything shines. They lied to me, they used me, they harassed me. I have not witnessed infidelity, but this is not excluded. I know what I gave and in return I received only pain. I don't want to hate, I don't want to get angry, but that's exactly what's happening. I don't trust men anymore, I don't expect anything from them. However, I do not think to give more for them. It just doesn't come from inside me. I have the feeling that every word is a lie. It's as if I don't deserve to be loved, but everyone deserves it and we have to love each other. I observe how always one, whether a man or a woman, loves more. It's just that fate is clearly looking for balance. I don't want anyone to love me more than I love him. I do not think, that this is fair. I am angry at what is happening, how people are used, how the word love has lost its meaning. At least that's how it is for me, it's empty. I want to become a mother, it's time for me, but how can I give birth to a child from this man I'm with. Every day I wonder if he loves me or not. This is the worst thing, wondering if they love you or not. Either feel nothing and leave, or love with your whole self. Just a message to all who see that they cannot love, they see that the person next to them is suffering. Just leave, let the man find him. It's just a little confession, a sharing. If anyone has understood me and felt my disappointment or is going through it, let them share their thoughts and feelings. Thanks! I want to become a mother, it's time for me, but how to give birth to a child from this man I'm with. Every day I wonder if he loves me or not. This is the worst thing, wondering if they love you or not. Either feel nothing and leave, or love with your whole self. Just a message to all who see that they cannot love, they see that the person next to them is suffering. Just leave, let the man find him. It's just a little confession, a sharing. If anyone has understood me and felt my disappointment or is going through it, let them share their thoughts and feelings. Thanks! I want to become a mother, it's time for me, but how to give birth to a child from this man I'm with. Every day I wonder if he loves me or not. This is the worst thing, wondering if they love you or not. Either feel nothing and leave, or love with your whole self. Just a message to all who see that they cannot love, they see that the person next to them is suffering. Just leave, let the man find him. It's just a little confession, a sharing. If anyone has understood me and felt my disappointment or is going through it, let them share their thoughts and feelings. Thanks! that they cannot love, they see that the person next to them is suffering. Just leave, let the man find him. It's just a little confession, a sharing. If anyone has understood me and felt my disappointment or is going through it, let them share their thoughts and feelings. Thanks! that they cannot love, they see that the person next to them is suffering. Just leave, let the man find him. It's just a little confession, a sharing. If anyone has understood me and felt my disappointment or is going through it, let them share their thoughts and feelings. Thanks!

Last Updated
August 04, 2020
Author:
jordynsmith

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