I Have Hellish Complexes About My Appearance

The Story

Hello! Let me tell you about me and my problem. I am a 16 year old girl and I am a maniac on the subject of appearance. When I was 12-13 years old, I constantly received insults like, "You're ugly" or "Get well, look what you look like." One day I got tired and started to change. I changed my hair, my style of dress, I lost weight. Then the insults subsided, but it was not enough for me to be an ordinary girl, I wanted to stand out, I wanted the boys to play leagues on me. At 15 (last year) I made a drastic change again, even some people at first failed to recognize me. I started to behave so to speak muffin. So far, I'm like that ... every day before I go out, I even spend at least 1 hour at the store for a haircut. We are on vacation now, but when we were at school I got up at 4:30 in the morning, given that the classes started at 7:30. I spent 3 hours just for my appearance. And despite these 3 hours, I still didn't like something in my vision, I always had a huge mirror and a comb in my textbook bag, as well as make-up, I even wore a hair straightener. And I'm never happy with the end result. Whenever I pass by shop windows, I always look around, and if a man doesn't look at me on the street, it means to me that I don't look good enough. I know it's very stupid, but I'm tired already .... the only thing that makes me happy is that this mania did not affect my success - I finished with 5. 50 Whenever I pass by shop windows, I always look around, and if a man doesn't look at me on the street, it means to me that I don't look good enough. I know it's very stupid, but I'm tired already .... the only thing that makes me happy is that this mania did not affect my success - I finished with 5. 50 Whenever I pass by shop windows, I always look around, and if a man doesn't look at me on the street, it means to me that I don't look good enough. I know it's very stupid, but I'm tired already .... the only thing that makes me happy is that this mania did not affect my success - I finished with 5. 50

Last Updated
October 20, 2020
Author:
brianohio

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