I have a problem with myself. I fail all my relationships. I have a terrible character. Sometimes I just don't know how anyone tolerates me at all. And the worst part is that I always consider myself right, and in the rare moments of "flashes" (like this one) I realize that's not the case. My friend tolerates me in spite of everything. He himself is not the most perfect, he is sometimes rude, he is colder. But he complies with all my anger and still wants us to be together. I don't know if I'm too sensitive, but I get offended very easily, sometimes by insignificant things. I obviously demand too much. I've always been that way ... to my family and to everyone I consider close. You will probably tell yourself what I give. I don't know either. I keep thinking that I'm doing the right thing, that loving them sincerely, that being honest, sincere and true in my relationship means that's enough. I also comply, but it is very difficult for me to compromise and when I feel offended or hurt I become very cruel. With my words and gestures it is as if I want to punish the "guilty". And I don't realize that he can suffer too. I underestimate other people's pain, I give importance only to my own. I judge even the smallest mistake cruelly. I don't know how to handle all this. Why am I like that ? Why do I want to be proven at all times that I am loved, given that I am not given a reason to think otherwise. I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life, and I think it will. And not because I can't stand me, but because I demand too much and when I don't get things the way I want, I quickly become disappointed and refuse. With my words and gestures it is as if I want to punish the "guilty". And I don't realize that he can suffer too. I underestimate other people's pain, I give importance only to my own. I judge even the smallest mistake cruelly. I don't know how to handle all this. Why am I like that ?? Why do I want to be constantly, at any moment, proven to be loved, when I am not given a reason to think otherwise. I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life, and I think it will. And not because I can't stand me, but because I demand too much and when I don't get things the way I want, I quickly become disappointed and refuse. With my words and gestures, it is as if I want to punish the "guilty". And I don't realize that he can suffer too. I underestimate other people's pain, I give importance only to my own. I judge even the smallest mistake cruelly. I don't know how to handle all this. Why am I like that ?? Why do I want to be proven at all times that I am loved, given that I am not given a reason to think otherwise. I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life, and I think it will. And not because I can't stand me, but because I demand too much and when I don't get things the way I want, I quickly become disappointed and refuse. I don't know how to handle all this. Why am I like that ?? Why do I want to be constantly, at any moment, proven to be loved, when I am not given a reason to think otherwise. I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life, and I think it will. And not because I can't stand me, but because I demand too much and when I don't get things the way I want, I quickly become disappointed and refuse. I don't know how to handle all this. Why am I like that ?? Why do I want to be constantly, at any moment, proven to be loved, when I am not given a reason to think otherwise. I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life, and I think it will. And not because I can't stand me, but because I demand too much and when I don't get things the way I want, I quickly become disappointed and refuse.
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So am I. When I love, I give everything and expect the same in return.