I Have A Feeling That Nothing Will Change

   Talk to her, tell her how much you love her, that she is the most important person in your life, and that you will not tolerate if something happens to her, and that precisely because she loves you, she should think about her health this time!

   I agree with you! You do not want advice, but I will give myself to you again, collect money and call the personal and visit

   From the author: Thank you very much

   I don't quite agree with you. The responsibility is not yours, but your mother's. SHE has decided to have a child like a mother-in-law and it is not your fault for the way her life went, but on the contrary - she is to blame with her choices even for the guilt that crushes you today. First, 70% of Bulgarians are middle-class - it is not your fault that your mother has "only" secondary education or work problems, and it is also normal for a person to be middle-class, but it is not normal not to be able to feed her child and to blame him indirectly. And yet - it is not your fault that she was deprived and took loans, simply because you (were) a child and as such you can not work and it is the duty of the parent to feed you. Another issue is that your parent was not able to do that, but she still gave birth to you, looked after you and yes - she deserves respect for her feat, but not your guilt. I have an appeal to the parents, especially to the mothers, who as women make the choice in the end - FIRST settle down, be able to satisfy your ELEMENTAL needs and those of a child and only then create a child. There are enough contraceptives in the 21st century. No one deserves to live in poverty or with guilt for your failed and rotten life. Author, when you grow up you will understand that she is to blame for your mother's life. She is a person who runs away from problems. She is currently doing the same - once she works, she is insured and will not pay for doctors, but she does not go to the doctor because she is running away from the problem. He will wait for the knife to rest right next to the bone, and only when the treatment becomes expensive and even impossible will it be felt. Typical of people like that ... but it's just a pity for you,

   Много си цинична номер 4. Нещата не стоят изобщо така както ти ги разбираш. Майка ми не е имала намерение да се получават така нещата. Разделила се е с баща ми, когато съм била на 1 година, защото той се е пропил и я е биел. Горда съм с нея, че е намерила силата. Не е завършила средното си образование, защото не е имала нужните средства и подкрепа от родителите си. И не е здравно осигурена, защото осигуровките и струват 200лв. Първо трябва да ги плати. В началото, когато се разболя, тя отиде на лекар и тогава и взеха 150 лв за лекарства и преглед. Kато цяло точно майка ми ми е изградила самочувствието, защото тя не спира всеки ден да ми казва колко е горда с мен. Ние живеем на квартира. Както казах нямаме подкрепа от никого, защото повечето ни роднини вече не са на този свят. Нейната заплата не е много висока. И с тази заплата тя трябва да плаща ток, вода, квартира, да ми дава на мен, за да не ми липсва нищо и тн. Може би си много по - голяма, умна и изживяла от мен. Но съм напълно сигурна, че благодарение на майка си ще стана горд човек, който няма да се надява на никой. Благодарение на майка си ще се науча да не мисля само за себе си, а и за другите. Благодарение на майка си, ще се науча да съм силна и да се справям с всички трудности в този живот. Благодаря ти за времето, което си отделила, за да напишеш този коментар. Съжалявам искрено, ако нещо съм те обидила. - Авторката

   Look, Author, you are still small and naive, but when you grow up, grow old, live alone, you will realize that a person makes the choices in his life. Your mother became pregnant, she chose her husband, she chose to give birth at this age without being able to support herself, she did not educate herself further, she did not manage the work on her own and she still does not go to the doctor on her own ( reasons can be invented by a person) and through her own qualities (qualities), choices in life she has put herself in the situation she is in. Love her and respect her - she is your mother, but do not idealize her and do not take her for example. It is one thing to deserve love, but it is quite another to deal with life. Your mother has definitely failed in life, and it's not because of you, it's because of her. It is a pity, however, that you do not only grow up in deprivation, in an inferior family, but also with a sense of guilt for your own existence and every bite almost without a drop of guilt in you. Be careful with guilt, because one day when you grow up you will realize that it is not your fault for your mother's shoddy life, but she has rather apologized to you for shit instead of a red carpet. It is one thing to love a person despite his weaknesses, but it is another to idealize him because of his weaknesses. Outwardly, life is merciless to the naive, stupid and weak, people like you Author, you are twice, three times, a hundred times more likely to repeat the fate of your failed parents than people from normal families. So love your mother - you won't have another without it,

   Author, your message is correct, but it is wrong not to feel guilty! F41