I Hate Myself For Cheating On Him

Hello! I decided to share my story here anonymously because I'm ashamed to share it with anyone else. I am a 16-year-old girl, I live in a village 15 kilometers from a big city. 2 months ago I got together with a boy of 20, our relationship is going more than well, we became very attached to each other. So, now I will tell the essence of the story. 3 days ago my best friend, whom I have 100% trust, suggested that we go to the pool in a hotel complex in the city. I agreed. My best friend came with his roommate to pick me up from the village by car. His roommate is 34, engaged in some illegal activity and so to speak is a scoundrel. We went to this complex, everything was great, we drank beers, then we turned to whiskey, I drank only a little, and they both drank 2 bottles and got quite drunk. It's 10 o'clock, there were no buses for the village at that time and I asked them how I would get home, and the mutra said that they were not able to drive and it was not a problem to book rooms in the hotel. At first I was quite worried, because I had a meeting with my friend that night, and there was no way I could go, there was no way I could call him. But then I drank another little whiskey and asked the mutterer what my room was because I was sleepy. He took me and it was very strange to me, because the room was double and there was a door between the bed where I had to sleep and the one on the muzzle, which does not lock. I asked him if he and I could exchange rooms with my best friend, and he told me not to worry, I wouldn't do anything to you, and he laughed. I went to bed and I was very sick because my friend was waiting for me and hoping to see me, and I was drinking whiskey and swimming in the pool. I sat for a long time and thought, when at one point the mutra came in, removed my blanket and told me to undress. I was staring and he said, "If you don't do it voluntarily, I'll help you." I pushed him, kicked him, what was I not trying to do, but do you think my 47 kilograms can be compared to his 100-120 kilogram torso? He took off my T-shirt, took off my panties and stood on top of me so I couldn't move. He started joking with me, and I was praying to him, crying, but the animal wanted its own. He made me blow on him, and I was so disgusted and told him I didn't want to. He slapped me, I started crying again, and the pervert didn't care and stuck his cock in my mouth. I was sitting like a tree, and he ended up there. I was so sick, I wanted to spit, but he held my mouth and said, It's time for you to learn to swallow. I was so disgusted and I just wanted to kill myself that night. The animal got up, went to his bed and before he got there he said to me, "Look, bitch, be careful what numbers you spin, you know who I am, you know what connections I have, and if you just opened your mouth to anyone, I'll find you." and will you *********! "I am sure that if I go to the police, nothing will happen, he really has connections everywhere. I didn't sleep all night and I cried, I thought how I would look at my friend, I thought what this monster did to me. Even at the moment I'm crying when I remember .... In the morning the mutra said come on bitch get ready, let me take you home. I got in the car and sat in the back next to my best friend who kept asking me why I had bruises on my face and why my eyes were watering. The monster was constantly looking at me through the rearview mirror and giving me threatening glances, so I told my best friend that I got drunk on whiskey last night and hit myself somewhere. I came home, I roared for almost 3 hours without stopping, I had no strength for anything. I couldn't call my friend, I just didn't know how to look him in the eye. So until yesterday, when we went out, he was very nervous that I hadn't called him for a few days, and I told him that I was just gone, I was at sea and I couldn't call him. He seems to believe, but I can't bear to lie to him, and I don't want to lose him. I feel my body defiled, I hate myself; One bitch I came home, I roared for almost 3 hours without stopping, I had no strength for anything. I couldn't call my friend, I just didn't know how to look him in the eye. So until yesterday, when we went out, he was very nervous that I hadn't called him for a few days, and I told him that I was just gone, I was at sea and I couldn't call him. He seems to believe, but I can't bear to lie to him, and I don't want to lose him. I feel my body defiled, I hate myself; One bitch I came home, I roared for almost 3 hours without stopping, I had no strength for anything. I couldn't call my friend, I just didn't know how to look him in the eye. So until yesterday, when we went out, he was very nervous that I hadn't called him for a few days, and I told him that I was just gone, I was at sea and I couldn't call him. He seems to believe, but I can't bear to lie to him, and I don't want to lose him. I feel my body defiled, I hate myself; One bitch and I don't want to lose it either. I feel my body defiled, I hate myself; One bitch and I don't want to lose it either. I feel my body defiled, I hate myself; One bitch