Most of you will probably think that my parents are harassing me and that's why I hate them, but on the contrary, I harass them. I keep yelling at them, insulting them and underestimating them, and I can't find an answer to why I do it. I am so angry with them for no apparent reason. I live in a small village where most people go abroad, and the children are raised by their grandparents. Our people have been working abroad for many years and they left me for the first time when I was two years old. I grew up raised by my grandmother, and I only talked to my parents on the phone. They go abroad for about six months, and the rest of the time they are in Bulgaria. When I began to enter puberty, this hatred for them appeared. When they are abroad and we hear each other on the phone, we hardly fight, but when they come home, some scandals start caused by me. This aggression on my part is directed mostly at my mother.
One year when I was in my mother's seventh grade and she had to go abroad for health reasons, she later told me a few years later that she was depressed and had been taking antidepressants for 10 years, and that was when she became more severe condition and therefore could not leave. I didn't know that then, and I fought with her almost every day, even once there was a fight, in which she complained to my father. After this case, things are not much different. Scandals and aggression continue every time they return home. Let me add that I am a child, my mother was pregnant before me, but at birth the baby died, after which she could not get pregnant for 6 years, but eventually she got pregnant with me and there was a great risk in my birth for her, due to complications from the first birth. As a child I was also a very problematic child, I was constantly ill, but she always took care of me. Although we live in a small village, with a little outdated understanding of her, I can say that she is relatively much more liberal than other mothers and I can talk about everything with her. I know you might think I'm a freak, but it doesn't matter because I feel the same way. She always made more compromises about their marriage to my father, because they are just very different, but I think this relationship between them is toxic, and if we lived in a city and not in a village, they would probably get divorced, but just here these things are not very well received. I just can't explain why I hate them so much? They are not perfect, but there are much nastier parents than mine. It's just that sometimes I'm very annoyed by their mentality and understandings. I know this is no reason to insult and shout at them, but I do. Maybe I'm a total mess with a lack of upbringing and that's why I do it, but to some extent maybe they have this guilt because for most of my growth they were not there. I'm already starting to wonder if I should go to a fortune teller or a psychologist, because I just don't know how to deal with this anger inside me.
The question that interests me the most is why the hell am I doing it. Where did my attitude towards them come from, as if they were rubbish, geeks and strangers, and not my parents? I'm already starting to wonder if I should go to a fortune teller or a psychologist, because I just don't know how to deal with this anger inside me. The question that interests me the most is why the hell am I doing it. Where did my attitude towards them come from, as if they were rubbish, geeks and strangers, and not my parents? I'm already starting to wonder if I should go to a fortune teller or a psychologist, because I just don't know how to deal with this anger inside me. The question that interests me the most is why the hell am I doing it. Where did my attitude towards them come from, as if they were rubbish, geeks and strangers, and not my parents?
1 asunagray18 answered
Hi, it's normal to get angry but parents, this happens when you grow up. It is also normal to have differences in your thinking and to be annoyed when they tell you what to do. I think you're more emotional and that's why you react that way. I would not go to a fortune teller, but the idea of a psychologist is very good. If there is a larger city near your town you can go there.