I Go Out With Guys Who Don't Appeal To Me.

Hello! I have been dealing with 3 boys for about a year now. I liked the first boy for a few days, but I confessed to him during that time, and he was deluded that I really liked him, and for that reason he showed interest in me. This boy and I went out for a few months, but I made it clear at the beginning that I didn't like him, and he didn't like me either, so there was no problem. Later I realized that I as a person did not like him and we broke up. Before we broke up, however, he introduced me to some of his friends. One of the boys I met through him wrote to me one day and we talked. I had an interest in him from the beginning because I didn't like his friend at all and I had a place in my heart. Yes, but this boy turned out to be much more interesting than I expected and I started to fall in love with him. It seemed to me that something could happen between us because he, too, behaved like he had an interest, but I later found out that he was just tanned. I don't know if it was because I was too easy with him or he liked another girl all the time, but he started to push me away. We have (even still) periods where we get along great and others when he just doesn't want to deal with me anymore. Maybe from the very beginning, when we had stopped talking for a while, I should have been tougher and not let him get away with it so easily. It doesn't matter anymore, he has a girlfriend he liked before we met and I'm sure he doesn't feel anything for me. But it's a little hard for me to forget. Maybe it would be easier for me if we didn't have mutual friends and we didn't go to the same school. So, a few months ago I talked to a new boy. At first I was crystal clear with him that I did not want to be together, but then I made the foolish impulsively to kiss him and locked the situation. Not only that, but I made him get together. He likes me, and he's not a bad boy, and sometimes I feel like I like him, but then I see the previous one in my back for 3 seconds and my knees soften. In general, I have come to the conclusion that I focus too much on my relationship with the boys, instead of letting my life go by itself. I hope to soon learn to stop doing it so that I don't worry about ruining people's lives (I'm talking about the last boy). If anyone with experience can advise me something, I will be glad to hear it. but then I did the foolish thing impulsively to kiss him and riveted the situation. Not only that, but I made him get together. He likes me, and he's not a bad boy, and sometimes I feel like I like him, but then I see the previous one in my back for 3 seconds and my knees soften. In general, I have come to the conclusion that I focus too much on my relationship with the boys, instead of letting my life go by itself. I hope to soon learn to stop doing it so that I don't worry about ruining people's lives (I'm talking about the last boy). If anyone with experience can advise me something, I will be glad to hear it. but then I did the foolish thing impulsively to kiss him and riveted the situation. Not only that, but I made him get together. He likes me, and he's not a bad boy, and sometimes I feel like I like him, but then I see the previous one in my back for 3 seconds and my knees soften. In general, I have come to the conclusion that I focus too much on my relationship with the boys, instead of going on with my life, I let things happen on their own. I hope to soon learn to stop doing it so that I don't worry about ruining people's lives (I'm talking about the last boy). If anyone with experience can advise me something, I will be glad to hear it. but then I see the previous one for 3 seconds in my back and my knees soften. In general, I have come to the conclusion that I focus too much on my relationship with the boys, instead of letting my life go by itself. I hope to soon learn to stop doing it so that I don't worry about ruining people's lives (I'm talking about the last boy). If anyone with experience can advise me something, I will be glad to hear it. but then I see the previous one for 3 seconds in my back and my knees soften. In general, I have come to the conclusion that I focus too much on my relationship with the boys, instead of going on with my life, I let things happen on their own. I hope to soon learn to stop doing it so that I don't worry about ruining people's lives (I'm talking about the last boy). If anyone with experience can advise me something, I will be glad to hear it.