I Go Crazy, I Can't Stand Going Crazy

The Story

And to share your opinion ... 3 years ago I met the love of my life, I am currently 24 and she is 30. We met, but it turned out that there is a child of 1 year and another man with whom they already live in a friendly way just load the child ... And then I immediately gave up on her, but we went out one night after another and so on and so on I feel that this is the woman I always wanted, although there is a child I do not confuse me, I love him as much as her ... And since then we decided that we both wanted to live together but she couldn't leave his house right away for a bunch of reasons, some things just happened around his family and she just couldn't leave him and I was too a year passed on this opinion and she was already on the verge of moving out and something else happened to her ex-husband and so a long time passed and she moved out of it ....She already lives in her home, we can't live together for a moment, at least a little time has to pass ... And so she already lives in her home, we sleep together in the evening, but I realized that when we are not together during the day because we work, in order to get together, and she really always raises and talks to him because she is very kind and good ... and can not tell him: I want you to call me only when it comes to the child, I have another life leave me (For example ) And she has been with him since she was a child, and she told me that this relationship was never real and was not her dream and she did not imagine living her old age with him ... And her ex knows that we are with her .. And I told him this thing or to tell him this or to give up on me, I kind of cheat on me kind of like that I feel it .. and I go crazy,and at the same time he loves me so much and wants to be with me and He gives me absolutely everything when everything is fine, even love is so strong I can't even describe it to the fullest .... I don't know what to do anymore 3 years have passed and all sorts of things like that happen, he always falls into some kind of state and behaves carelessly towards me .. I just have the feeling that I'm going really crazy, I'm already bleeding, I can't sleep, I'm constantly nervous .... and yesterday we talked and I asked if he really you want to be with me, if you imagine the future with me, tell me if you don't tell me to leave you and stop trying, and she told me with a smile my future is with you, but it's still kind of weird, it has been like this for about 15 days now, there is no time for me and there is for my girlfriends, and it has never been like that ...They are constantly going back and forth and I work 24 hours a day and can't give me 1 hour of calm time from 15 days, all the time we see each other we are both super tired in the evening and fall asleep for 5 minutes and can't talk anything significant ... And I from I've only been with her for 3 years, I haven't had another one, I've had thousands of opportunities to be with another woman with whom it will be easier, but I don't want to .. She is the woman for me .... But this with my ex is driving me crazy. , hem and she takes off that there is no way to get together because they do not fit together and for 10 years the two live as friends and cheated many times and are radically different with a completely different way of life ... I have accepted it all, to accept it was very difficult all this was very difficult for me everything but I love more than my life .... I'm interested in your opinion, is it worth it to keep clenching my teeth,or just life will pass like this for her, because she has been living like this with such a way of life for 10 years

Last Updated
October 10, 2020
Author:
xxWhisper

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