I Go Crazy Because Of Other People's Opinion

I am the most ordinary teenager like everyone else, I am a strong student and I have friends, but I also have a big problem, I am constantly influenced by other people's opinion about almost everything! Ever since I was a child, as far as I can remember, people have been forcing their opinion on me, whether I wanted it or not! They always tell me only what I'm not good at, what they would change in me and how I should behave, look, etc. When I was a child, I didn't listen to them at all, I just tried to listen to my music and I almost didn't fuck about it which they jingled at me. Somehow I have learned, when I listen to what I like, to be transported to my world, where everything is what I want and I have no problems. When I went to school, I had problems with class, I was teased because of my funny name, because I was weirder because I liked and still like different things, I have a primitive way of thinking. At first I wasn't so conscious, I just wanted the teacher to walk and I was always cowardly, at least as a child. But then I got sicker, why did everyone treat me like that? Am I so lost and ridiculous that I don't deserve normal human behavior? I started complaining, arguing with classmates, I came home crying almost every day and thousands of other problems. Yes, children are nasty, and that's typical petty behavior, but back then I was a kid and I was naughty. After a while I moved to another school, not because of bullying, I just decided to go elsewhere and at first well, I found friends, but you know that when someone is a good student, then he is a bison? Well, I ended up in one of the weakest classes in school and I became the "bumper of the class" without a problem. and from there new taunts followed. First, just for fun! At first I didn't sleep at all, I was even proud that I was doing well, but gradually people started to get very angry! They started tossing things about my appearance, my way of dressing, my gait, my demeanor, and of course, they kept fucking me for being a jerk! Every time I had a high grade, I was like that and I was very bad, and if I make a mistake somewhere, then I'm stupid and I'm bad again! I said to myself, "What so much! They just justify their laziness and think they're cool, but they actually prove that they're dumb, limited and have no opinion of their own, they just imitate someone without even knowing why!", But just in one moment you start to like to be constantly planted complexes and harassed for the fact that instead of putting on makeup, you want 6 in chemistry! I used to like myself somehow, I loved my style precisely because it is different and not only did I not care that people didn't like me, but I was also happy that I was different and unique in something! Ever since I started junior high school, I somehow took the insults more maturely and they just stopped! I haven't been teased since 9th grade that I'm a bison (now I'll be 11), but I still have high success, I've changed my vision to some extent and now even a lot of people enjoy my style, which is because I want to n., but there is another problem. People argue a lot with me and often try to make me stupid again, they always force their opinion on me, they try to irritate me, they are always lurking to make a mistake in anything! I keep wondering how I look in people's eyes, whether I'm doing the right thing, whether they like me or not, it's awful! I want to stop thinking about what people will say about me, I have an opinion about everything,