I Gave Up Love

The Story

I gave up love. I don't know when and how it happened (it was somewhere in the last 6 months). Why did I give up - because my love was always unrequited, because it brought me brief moments of happiness which was an illusion and then hours of tears. I still remember sitting in the 11th grade after school crying for hours about the girl I loved (my first and last true love) because I knew I would never be with her, but I kept hoping and trying. Yes, I had others before her, but that was not love, it was just a student teenage liking. And after it was all over, after I forgot her, I began to feel the need to fall in love again, to love and to be loved. But after a while I realized something - no one would fall in love with me. No one would love me. Don't get me wrong, I'm not some freak that women run away from, I have girlfriends with whom I have a lot of respect, but love hardly? !! .

So far, no girl has written to me or invited me for coffee, nor have I liked the photos on Facebook. But honestly, I stopped caring. At first, when I gave up love, I felt crippled or mentally dead, but then I realized that this was the only way out for me if I wanted to keep myself emotionally and psychologically. Why love any woman when no one would love me. As for sex, haha, I made my own set with a prostitute. It was not what I expected, it turned out according to the fairy tale: You dream of love, and you sleep with whomever you fall for. I have always dreamed of a quiet, meek and modest girl to love, hug and make love to. But with age comes reconciliation, and one realizes that not all dreams are destined to come true. So here and now I am and I can't say that my decision to give up love makes me happy, but at least I'm not unhappy anymore. And I would never make the mistake of loving again. Now some of you may say that I am crazy, but that is only because they have not experienced what I have experienced, they have not been constantly rejected. Others will say that it must have been just for sex - not before I went to a prostitute I waited for the girl in question 2.5 years.

And so I gave up love, vain illusions, and self-deception. And I would never make the mistake of loving again. Now some of you may say that I am crazy, but that is only because they have not experienced what I have experienced, they have not been constantly rejected. Others will say that it must have been just for sex - not before I went to a prostitute I waited for the girl in question for 2.5 years. And so I gave up love, vain illusions, and self-deception. And I would never make the mistake of loving again. Now some of you may say that I am crazy, but that is only because they have not experienced what I have experienced, they have not been constantly rejected. Others will say that it must have been just for sex - not before I went to a prostitute I waited for the girl in question for 2.5 years. And so I gave up love, vain illusions, and self-deception.

Last Updated
July 29, 2020
Author:
_laureneyes

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