Hello, everyone. An 18-year-old boy (Virgo) writes to you with many questions and no answers. Lonely and a little desperate. At 18, I haven't had a single love affair of any kind. As far as I can remember, I'm different in terms of thinking and interests. I never fit in. With a mother who is back from work, an unemployed drunken father and a younger sister with whom we are a little distant. I have a lot of acquaintances and 2 real friends who I love very much and are my support in every situation. As a person, I am a dreamer who is constantly searching for the truth about life. I'm bothering my head with all sorts of things. I am a poet and a writer. I read a lot and I love conspiracies. I'm a gamer. I think I'm one of the people with the strangest taste in music. Rock / metal classics plus blues and jazz classics. Otherwise, I mainly listen to hip-hop with all its legends from the pioneers to the new things (Immortal Technique 2pac Big L BIG lowkey KRS-1) these are my favorites. I also love the universe and everything related to space. Every good night to watch the stars I go out on the terrace, spit on a star, watch it for 2-3 minutes and say to myself "What kind of dream will you bring me today, darling". Then I go to bed and fall asleep. I used to bother with my own problems. Then I realized that we are nothing compared to the whole universe, and what is left for our problems. The thing I'm writing about here is a girl. I need help. It's unique do you understand? The most charming girl both in character and appearance. She is a writer, photographer, gamer and we match our interests. She's from my sister's class. She's quite popular in our small town, I'm not that popular. She's from my sister's class. I saw her live 2 times and the first time it was as if I saw my star in the sky, that's how I felt. I wrote and we wrote to each other on Facebook for over 2 hours for the first time and she said that she would write to me the next day, but for reasons beyond my control I was not at home that day. And so I wrote the next day but she said she would go for a walk I wrote a few times after that but nothing serious. In general, I'm a little shy (I've only kissed a girl twice, I'm a virgin) and I'm damn full of doubts, I doubt everything and especially myself. That bothers me. I don't look bad. Meaning and more unattractive guys catch boyfriends. I've always wanted to find the right one. Now that I think I've found her, I realize I'm not worth it because I'm a coward. And now I wonder if I should write to her or stop bothering her. Maybe I don't deserve it. And I will continue to be alone with the music. Cosmic
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And I'm an "unofficial" writer. We seem to be more sensitive as natures and we are always looking for the great in people and we cannot find the truth. Drop everything, leave the illusions for your lyrics, pay attention to your appearance, turn your head and boldly to the one you like. If it's yours, you'll understand. You don't have to tell her what hobby you do in the beginning. When I told them, they kept asking me if I would write about them, some with ridicule, others with respect ... it doesn't matter. You're not doing anything wrong. You are not a coward, of course, you are a good, well-mannered boy with values and such should be your chosen one, because when I look at your sets with these manners of drunks and drunks, I am not surprised that you do not meet a girl to grab your attention. You have time, you are not late for anything. You may meet her soon without guessing.