Hello dear readers of this nice site. I just want to share, maybe to find some comfort. I went to write my story several times in recent months and kept giving up. Well, already after the latest events. I finally made up my mind. Like others today, the story unfolds in the workplace. It all started a little over a year ago when I started a new job. I saw her for the first time in my interview and even then she made a good impression on me - beautiful, intelligent, responsive. For the first two months I approached carefully and did almost nothing, I was still new and I got to know everything and everyone. Shortly afterwards, I gained confidence and began to communicate with her at work and in chats. To my surprise, she was also interesting to me, but out of pure curiosity. Time passed, the chats became more and more voluminous and we got closer (I forgot to say that I am 27, she is a little older than me). I also found out that she had a husband and a small child, and that turned me off. I didn't want to interfere in other people's relationships and tried to reduce my interest in her. It did not work out. And I wrote to her, and she was looking for me, things got complicated and I couldn't explain it. I accused myself of wanting another woman, I tried to shake myself, but I couldn't. Towards the middle of last year, I had a conversation with her about where all this was going, given the complex situation. She told me that there was nothing between her and her husband and that they were together only because of the child. To this day, I'm not sure if that's the case, because judging by the little I see on social media, it doesn't seem to be true, but these are personal things and I dare not ask. He also told me that it would not be easy for her and that she would need time to trust me and let me in. I didn't want to press her, I was ready to wait for her, I liked her a lot and I still like her. Time passed, we continued to communicate, to court her, and at the same time the feeling of guilt kept hovering in me, but I also liked her and wanted her still very much. Due to the nature of our work and given its situation, it is very difficult for us both to steal even half a day. Autumn has come. Nothing had happened between us yet, I got nervous and decided to end my relationship with her (except for business, of course). I stopped looking for her, but after a few days she wrote me that it was very difficult for her without me and she could not do without a simple "hello, how are you today" or "how was your day". We continued as before. About two more months passed in the same way, I told myself again that I was done with her. I wanted to see her live (out of work), to tell her that I couldn't finish like that anymore. She didn't want to. We continued again in the same way - at work purely collegially, in the chats - normal communication for what not. At the beginning of December we found a place only for us, we went out on a date (not for the first time), but he had to go home immediately after that and I was left empty-handed again. I was already ruined. I stopped looking for her and became interested in her once again. About a week passed. I didn't communicate with her at work at all, only as a last resort. This week passed and she called me. She wrote me that she missed me. that she can't do without me, that she loves me (which I don't believe and I don't know why she wrote it) and that she is ready to give me what I want. Emmy, in love and lost are very close, right I felt that I had nothing to hope for, but I kept going. And at the end of last year, she told me that it would be better to limit everything, that I was wasting my time and that I had to separate from her. In general, I wanted this to happen back in September, but even though I thought about it, I didn't do it because of her renewed interest in me and the nurturing of hopes. I accepted that it was all over. About ten days passed during which we communicated only officially. I deleted her from Facebook so I wouldn't see what she was sharing and when she was online. Literally two days ago another "if you know how I miss you" followed ... Well, I'm a human being after all, I carry a soul. After the next chat of the revelations he told me that he wants me, but it can't / shouldn't happen. Do not get me wrong. If it was just for sex, I wouldn't have to wait that long. I want her for me, I don't want to be just a lover for a short time. Even if a more serious step had been taken, in the next one / two years I could not offer her financial stability and housing to come to me and she knows it. I don't know what will happen from now on, I don't know if she will look for me again, I only know that I don't want to suffer anymore because of her. I still like her and I want to, I can't get her out of me. In principle, time heals and will show. Thank you for taking the time to read my story. I still like her and I want to, I can't get her out of me. In principle, time heals and will show. Thank you for taking the time to read my story. I still like her and I want to, I can't get her out of me. In principle, time heals and will show. Thank you for taking the time to read my story.
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Man, are you crazy? If one thing doesn't happen the first time, it doesn't happen the tenth, don't you understand it? Ignore her completely! This will keep you spinning for another 10 years. She just likes someone to pay attention to her. To know that someone will run as long as she calls him only ... Probably her husband doesn't shave her plum at all, nor do they communicate with him. However, now - he fucks her, and you replace everything else. If you have to quit your job! Women in the world are over ... Come on, please!