Hello, everyone. I came across this site quite by accident. In general, I do not go to this type of site, but at the moment I need advice, and there is no one to share. Maybe most of you will criticize me, but I myself am not proud of my actions. I am 19 years old from Sofia, I finished school this year. My problem is this. I am in love with the most inappropriate man in this world. He is 26 years old and I am convinced that he is not indifferent to me either. Many of you will probably ask why it is the most inappropriate.
Emmy because he's married and not to anyone else, but to my own sister. They have been married for 3 and a half years, otherwise, they have been together for 9 years. Let me mention that since our parents have been in Spain for many years, I live with them. They are currently going through a very difficult period (not only them but also the whole family. 6 months ago my sister gave birth to a baby girl. Unfortunately, he was born in the 8th month and lived only 35 days. It ruined us all, but most of all my sister. To me, my sister's husband has always been just an older dad who used to cover for me from time to time.
This was the case 2 years ago. At that time Kaka was a student in Varna (part-time). He had to leave for 1 week to take his exams. He and I were left alone at home. For the first 3 days, we hardly saw each other at home. When I got up for school he was already out for work and when I came home he was already in bed. But on day 4 it was different. In the evening I came home earlier than usual and we both sat down to watch TV. Then he started asking me about my boyfriend (then I was dating a boy for almost a year). Surprisingly for me, he asked me if I had slept with him and I answered yes. And so it went tonight. The next night I went out to a disco with my friend.
But in the beginning, we quarreled with him (then we broke up) and he left. I stayed with some friends and "a little" too much with alcohol. One of my friends called "MY FATHER" to come and pick me up. On the way home, he asked me why I was drunk and I told him everything. When we got home he put me to bed. But something happened to me and I attacked him. He pulled away at first, but then began to return my kisses. We had the most amazing sex. I had an orgasm for the first time. He was so gentle. While my sister was gone, we did it every day. For a year and a half, we did it every time we had the opportunity.
When my sister gave birth, I realized that I was betraying the man who had always supported me. As the saying goes, my conscience began to bite and I began to avoid it. I tried not to be alone with him at home. He started sending me text messages that he missed me, that he wanted me to go crazy without me, that he couldn't stand the thought of a wall dividing us, and so on. I felt like I was going crazy. On the one hand, I loved him, on the other hand, I couldn't keep betraying my sister. After my nephew died, he stopped sending me text messages. Shortly after the child's funeral, we were left alone in the living room, and he told me that he cared terribly for me and didn't want to lose me, but now he understood what my sister meant to him. That was the end of us. I know this is the right thing to do, but I can't stop loving it. I think about him all the time. When I saw him, I was all goosebumps. I try to avoid it but it is impossible after all we live together. My sister keeps telling me how much he has changed for her.
How gentle he has become, how much attention and attention he pays, etc. You have no idea how I am tormented by these stories of hers. I try to forget him to go out with others but it doesn't work. Please give me advice on what to do.
1 ashanty_sweet69 answered
Well, this story of yours shook me! The situation is complicated, but in my opinion, since you have already graduated, move out ... start working and so on ... if your sister asks you why you are moving out, you can think of a thousand reasons, even in my opinion the best option would be if you start studying higher education outside Sofia. I hope things get better with you! If you want to answer me in some way write me on [censored]