I Fell In Love With A Colleague But Nothing Happened.

Hello, I want to share something that happened to me 2 years ago. I fell in love with a colleague from the university. Everything happened super accidentally. From the very beginning, when I saw him, he made a very strong impression on me. It looked very good and something in the appearance and behavior impressed me very much. And the strangest thing is that I didn't even expect it and it just happened. And so every time I saw him in lectures, I couldn't stop thinking about him. There was some attraction, and I wasn't at all sure if he actually had such an attraction to me. And so my lectures went in a very strong way.

However, I had not spoken to him on any occasion, nor had he. Nothing happened, but it was very strange to me. And I didn't even realize I was falling in love. Every time I saw him I felt very strong. I had no desire for physical contact, whatever. I felt a strange security or calm, if I may call it that. Subsequently, we had sports and other lectures, and my interest began to grow because I saw it in a different light. And so I wanted even more to have some closeness, but it was strange to me, because later I saw that he had a girlfriend and it became clear to me that nothing could happen ... However, I saw him every day at lectures and it all went on somehow ..

I think I fell in love. It was very strange to me ... I thought that something could happen, but I didn't talk to anyone about what was happening to me and I think that had a big impact. I hadn't told any of my friends about it. We were on a trip together and one night it happened, that I had been drinking and smoking and we had gathered in one room and it was very strange because we were sitting next to each other and he started touching my arm behind the back of a girl and something very strange happened to me haha. In fact, during a training session, he came close to me and it was something very strange to me, precisely because I knew that he had a girlfriend and I didn't know how to react ... And so, in fact, on the trip after this incident, we played on the truth or do you dare and in front of several people including him, I said that I like boys. Although I have no serious experience ... And honestly, there was no reaction from him ... rather fucks that he is gay, but somehow it was very strange for sure because there were other people in the room ... So I decided that things could not work out.

There was no way I could interfere in other people's relationships ... and so the last time I saw him there seemed to be nothing on his side. I stopped being interested in him, but at one point I decided to write to him because somehow things were different for me and they seemed unspecified. And now every time I see him on Facebook, something very strange happens to me. I wrote to him some time ago, but he doesn't answer me and I wonder how to act because he is in another country and I am in Bulgaria and we will hardly see each other again ...