You need a psychologist or psychiatrist. I am afraid of heights and I was treated by a medical psychologist. A psychiatrist sent me to the Health Insurance Fund. I still can't look down from the 20th floor, but from 10 I manage, riding an escalator. Look for a job and when you find it you will feel better. Taking the first money even better. Go out with the children, they are your support and the most precious thing.
Fasting and prayer. I have decided to fill a bottle with water and pray by the water. Because it has been proven and I have seen that after prayer the structure of the water becomes very beautiful. And the human body is over 80 waters. Read the Bible the New Testament and pray to God with fasting and prayer and drink water after prayer.
Author, the things you describe are for a psychiatrist. First 20-30 days of treatment with antidepressants, then a psychologist to gradually overcome fears and only then look for work and enter the "deep of life".
I had a similar problem when my mother died, I was 24 years old, married with a child, after the funeral I just went into my bedroom and sat sitting on the bedroom looking at one point in the wall, without lighting, all the noises annoyed me. It was a problem for me to get out of our apartment.
Doctors are there to help, it's good that you realize you have a problem, it's the hardest thing to realize, then things are easier.
Personally, I was ashamed of my husband to go to a psychiatrist, I went by taxi without his knowledge, once a week for four weeks in a row and things got better.
However, things last for 15 years, so after treatment with drugs you will need serious help from a psychologist to lend you a hand and take you out of the hole.
№1, who told you that a doctor can kill your phobia from heights? It can only drive you insane, but it's called intoxication. With two children, still 30 years old and locked in houses all day, where happiness comes from. If the husband does not bring reassurance, the situation worsens. You need the sun, a lot of sun, you lack the serotonin, the hormone of happiness. In warm weather, stay in the sun as often as possible naked, and now in winter, some very mild antidepressant will help you best. It may become commonplace, but for me, the best mild antidepressant is Deanxita - the pink pills of happiness! Success!
Laziness (plus winter time) brings bad thoughts to your head. Start doing something or find a real hobby. This is the solution. Extremely simple.
I went to psychologists, psychiatrists, but they try to take my referral and money and until then, no one seriously understands the problem and how I can solve it. No questions, no details, no interrogations on their part. Upon entering the door direction and fee, I say to myself, wait was a man, I have not yet introduced myself, you talk to me about directions. I have no words, really. I was not lucky enough to come across a literate, human, real specialist, unfortunately. As for drugs, I have been taking seroxate for 15 years, I stopped it only when I was pregnant. My first pregnancy went without a problem, I felt good, but the second was hell. Roaring every day, depression, fear, was severe. My body is so used to this poison that if I don't drink it for 4.5 days it is a great adventure. I will probably drink seroxate while I'm alive
For 3 visits to a psychotherapist, I had no mention of postpartum depression. I didn't drink anything, changed my diet, got up, and listened to hypnotherapy for 1 month. I just don't know why I put it off so long ...
Do some research on all kinds of hormones, vitamins and the like. Very often depressions are purely biochemical effects.
I am very grateful. For years I was afraid and tormented. I went to work under duress, we needed money. My brother drove me to work, I came back with a colleague. I did not want to retire due to illness, because with a psychodiagnosis who will hire me later. One has to help oneself. Think of your children, the misery you doom them to when you stay home without money. Grit your teeth, you may be looking for work from home. Start doing anything. Knit, sew, embroider, paint, glue. You will always find a close relative, a parent to sell them. Happiness is built, only you can overcome your fears. I'll write to you again.
That's right, getting up, going to bed, eating; a blood test to see if you are deficient in vitamins; physical exercises (or cleaning at home, sweeping around the block), walks with children; sun, vitamin D and magnesium additionally; you should consider stopping any antidepressants (do not start new ones, try a healthy lifestyle and supplements first, depression is also associated with a lack of vitamins and minerals); start inviting girlfriends at home, in the neighborhood; Ask some authors of novels, short stories that will intrigue you and / or movies (directors, actors), join a group where you can participate with opinions, slowly everything will be fine. With children you can do various creative projects, there are many examples on YouTube - DIY
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