I Feel Rejected By Life And Unnecessary In This World!

The Story

Hello, my story is as follows, a little long until I hope you read it to the end. I am writing for the second time on this site. I am a boy, 22 years old. Living with my mother, my father died of a heart attack in 2007 at work at the age of 42. I have been without a father for 8 years now. I was starting ninth grade when this happened, it was the summer of 2007. Since then, I have always helped with the quota I can at home. I finished my high school with a relatively good grade of 5.40, I achieved a total grade point average in BG 4. 50, in Geography 5, 04. I graduated in 2011, I studied with a set of 92s older than me, and I myself am 93- you set. I collected money for a book, I made a book, I collected money for a car, I bought a car, an old woman, but it works for me, and at home the quota was necessary with it. I immediately enrolled in higher education, I'm already in my senior year. I finish the summer and then I start looking for a job. I want to move from my small town to the capital somewhere, but I don't want to be in Sofia. At the moment I have a feeling, not even one feeling but many feelings. Along with this fear of the unknown and the strange that awaits me after I graduate, I am also very lonely, so to speak, I don't have a girlfriend (it's a serious girlfriend), but I've never had one, and I really want to have one. But I wonder if the problem is in me or not. Which sets are more serious and which set for a friend to look for. I know that there are no ages and limits for love, at least that's what they say, isn't that the story. I've tried 93, 95, 97, up to a maximum of 99, but for there already, they seem to have to wait to grow even more, because they don't know what they want from life.

Separately, this Facebook has brainwashed me, or at least I feel like there is some dependence on it. I think I'll close it for 2-3 days, a week, maybe permanently. I don't need it, it just makes me nervous and angry. I am an Aries zodiac sign, if it matters. When I like a girl, when the girl sees that I'm serious or things start to get more serious, they push me away and reject me, and that weighs a lot on me. Personally, I have a very hard time with it. I put it all on my heart. Or those girls that I liked, as I said earlier, do not know what they want, and they are afraid when things get more serious or the problem is in me. And I'm a good person, let me tell you, I'm not just looking for my only goal, when I meet and start communicating with a girl is not sex. I'll admit, I haven't even slept with a girl yet, understand that I'm a virgin.

Shame not shame I admitted. : D Separately, like any normal Bulgarian average family, money at home lacks bills, expenses, loans and they create headaches. I participate with my pension, which they give me BGN 150, in helping to cover part of these expenses. I don't go out to restaurants, if I do it it's very rare once a month or two, sometimes it happens that I don't go anywhere for half a year. I got together with friends, but I saw that they were using me for my car: take me here, take me there, and I cut them off. I don't need users. They refuel me, it's true, but in a car it's not just the fuel that breaks, no one comes with me to hang on to masters and look for someone to clean my car, I run around these places. Separately, my grandparents call me to run around the village to help. The circus was full. Now I ask myself, "WHAT DO I WANT FROM LIFE AND WHERE TO START, WITH WHICH FIRST STEP TO ACHIEVE IT ???? My main goals are as follows: 1. To start a job after I graduate and collect some income so that I can leave this city and look for a job in another city. 2. To get out of the city where I live now; 3. To settle in another city, for accommodation and secure work. 4. To enroll in the next university, what I want as a specialty, not what I am currently graduating in my city, because I do not like it. My dream, which I realized while studying at this university during these past 4 years, is to study law.

5. TO MEET AND FIND LOVE IN MY LIFE! - HEY I WANT THE MOST OF EVERYTHING AND IF IT CAN BE THE FIRST AFTER THIS I WILL HAVE A GREAT INCENTIVE TO ACHIEVE THE OTHER 4 GOALS ABOVE. Give me advice on who to spin, who to cost where to start. Thank you all very much and I accept any comments, advice and criticism. I AM BEFORE THE DILEMMA OF WHETHER I CONTINUE TO FIGHT WITH THIS DAMNED LIFE OR TO GIVE UP, I AM CURRENTLY ON THE EDGE AND I AM WONDERING TO JUMP AND SURRENDER. I do not want to run away and work abroad to be enslaved to other laws, for another country. BETTER a slave in his own country and misery with a small income than a slave in another country and as a servant to someone in the name of a little more money. I don't crave much in this life, as long as I have enough. BETTER a slave in his own country and misery with a small income than a slave in another country and as a servant to someone in the name of a little more money. I don't crave much in this life, as long as I have enough. BETTER a slave in his own country and misery with a small income than a slave in another country and as a servant to someone in the name of a little more money. I don't crave much in this life, as long as I have enough.

Last Updated
August 17, 2020
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