I have no idea how to formulate all this. I want to express my feelings here, because in real life there is no one to do it to. My parents are careerists and they don't pay enough attention to me. I have no real friends. I'm 17 and so far I haven't had a serious boyfriend, I've only had my first kiss, but I don't even want to remember that moment. I'm beautiful and people admire me, but that doesn't make me feel better, I feel empty. No one is trying to get to know my personality, they are just using me. I want to have sex, but there is one thing that stops me. I don't even know how to explain it. I imagine having to deal with a boy in time, but he won't know it's my first time and I'm a virgin. You will say, tell him. It's not that simple because I'm ashamed. I don't want to be surprised, that I am still a virgin at this age (by this age I do not mean 17, because it is not known when she will be, maybe at 20+). When I think about sex, I cry. It's the same when someone makes romantic gestures to me. I feel strange. Separately, I have no experience. I can't live with this loneliness. Why is it so easy for other people and not for me? !! I just want a little love and attention.
1 saojosefutebol answered
Don't worry about the fact that you don't have that much experience, if some people start to gain experience, there is no stopping. You want love, it's normal to take a little longer. It's just that obviously your "sensors" for feelings are stronger than your peers and you don't wander from relationship to relationship. I understand your torments for love, simply because I have had them and that is why I advise you not to bother unnecessarily. As for virginity, in the worst case, she just won't find it important, and she may see it as a plus. Do not direct your possible future love to the question of why you are a virgin now.