I Feel Like I'm In The Army.

The Story

Hello people. I am a boy of 16, I study in a sports school and I live only with my father - I have no siblings, my mother died when I was little. My father is a former athlete and he wants to somehow pass on to me all his passion and desire to win. The problem is not that he wants me to play sports, I like him too, but I feel like I'm in a barracks (or something like that). It makes me eat only certain foods and there are things I have never tried such as doner, pizza, chips or even french fries and many other things. I am forbidden to drink all kinds of carbonated drinks, all kinds of alcoholic beverages, and cigarettes cannot be mentioned (not that I am dying to smoke, but still). He wakes me up at 5:30 every morning and I have to go out by 5:45 to run.

After school I go to basketball. If we don't have a workout, he quickly thinks of something else. Every day after I get home I have to do exercises - abdominal presses, push-ups, squats, etc .. After I'm done with this I have very little time to have dinner (which is under an hour, like any other meal of the day), yes I take a bath and study (for which he also doesn't compromise), because according to him I should have gone to bed by 10:30 - 11 and he is right because I get up at 5:30. My only quiet time is at school when I don't have to do anything. There I can see friends - something I want to do, but I can't. I literally don't go out, my daily routine is training, training, and training again. When I compete and don't win first place, he says absolutely nothing, but he seems kind of disappointed. I only had one friend who asked us to break up a month later because we hardly see each other except at school, we didn't talk on the phone and we didn't write to each other because I don't have time for that.

When I grew up a little, he started making me donate blood once or twice a year, I know it's nice, but I don't like it. I don't feel well at all, I'm constantly tired, I don't sleep, I still eat the same healthy food, I don't go out, I don't play any computer and video games like normal children my age, I start to feel more afraid to always I'm the first and I can't tell him anything, because he'll probably be disappointed in me, and I don't want that to happen. I want to have a normal life, but I don't want to offend him in any way and I don't know what to do. I'm constantly tired, I don't sleep, I eat the same healthy food, I don't go out, I don't play any computer and video games like normal children my age, I start to feel more and more afraid to always be first and I can't tell him anything because he will probably be disappointed in me and I don't want that to happen.

I want to have a normal life, but I don't want to offend him in any way and I don't know what to do. I'm constantly tired, I don't sleep, I eat the same healthy food, I don't go out, I don't play any computer and video games like normal children my age, I start to feel more and more afraid to always be first and I can't tell him anything because he will probably be disappointed in me and I don't want that to happen. I want to have a normal life, but I don't want to offend him in any way and I don't know what to do.

Last Updated
July 26, 2020
Author:
schellad7

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