I Feel Like A Magnet For Idiots.

The Story

Hello! It's very hard for me and I just want to pour out my soul. I'm 24, if that matters. He's 28. Well, my boyfriend ... or my ex-boyfriend, met someone a week ago. You wrote several times. Or so he claims. I felt that something was happening 2-3 months ago. He denies it, but I don't believe him. He didn't even tell me why. He didn't give me a reason. Is it my fault? Is there a problem in me? Am I tired of him? He just wrote me that. "Last week I met a girl from Sofia. I think you should have known. I don't want to do anything before I tell you. I will not block you, but we will write to each other less often and in another way. I don't want to spin both. We just wrote to each other a few times. Sorry if this offends you. Now you will say - "Why are you complaining, he told you. "Yes, but it hurts. I did everything for him, there were moments in which I have even humiliated myself. I always tried to please him, to be his. During those two years, he didn't even tell me once or show me that he loved me. I hardly heard a kind word. It was like ice. And yet, I did not look at another. He recently told me - "Well, do you know when I will find a girl like you - just never. So, a month later, he obviously found it. He quit his job a few days ago. He worked as an internet marketer. He took about BGN 900. He asked for an increase (BGN 400), but his boss did not agree. He told me that he would look in Sofia or Plovdiv, with a higher salary. There he would ask for BGN 2,000 or 3,000. Great, I wish him success. He will certainly choose to go to Sofia for the one in question. The strange thing is that when I offered him to go there together some time ago, he didn't want to. Actually ... I don't know if he'll find a girl to accept all his quirks, desires and sexual fantasies. But if he decided so, fine. Now you may be wondering what exactly the fantasies are about. Well, he liked to be a strict mistress, to fix him with a penis belt, to insult him, to write, etc. But that's not so striking. When I wasn't with him, he used to shine on porn, photos or gifs. No, he wasn't looking at the usual things. He watched dicks, shemales (a transsexual woman with a male genitalia) and the like. He had even taken a dildo. He seemed more aroused by these things than by a woman's body. Sometimes he wore thongs while shining. I thought he might be gay. He told me he couldn't be real with a man. He wanted everything only by fantasy and liked only women. Well, I thought ... shouldn't he, more or less, really want it? Whether consciously or subconsciously, it doesn't matter. Anyway. I assumed I believed him. I accepted him as he was. Strange as it may be. Now I wonder, what did I do wrong? What did he see in her? They haven't even seen each other. Am I like reading a book, not interesting? I ask myself and I can't answer. How do you throw everything away so easily? Am I anything? I'm sorry I trusted him so much, I told him everything. I had no secrets from him. It has never happened to me to be so honest with another. And finally what? Can he really be gay and not want to admit it? At all ... is it my fault? I feel very confused and deceived. I can write a lot more, but it will probably take a very long time. I hope my story is approved. Thanks! Am I like reading a book, I'm not interesting? I wonder and I can't answer. How do you throw everything away so easily? Am I anything? I'm sorry I trusted him so much, I told him everything. I had no secrets from him. It has never happened to me to be so honest with another. And finally what? Can he really be gay and not want to admit it? At all ... is it my fault? I feel very confused and deceived. I can write a lot more, but it will probably take a very long time. I hope my story is approved. Thanks! Am I like reading a book, I'm not interesting? I ask myself and I can't answer. How do you throw everything away so easily? Am I anything? I'm sorry I trusted him so much, I told him everything. I had no secrets from him. It has never happened to me to be so honest with another. And finally what? Can he really be gay and not want to admit it? At all ... is it my fault? I feel very confused and deceived. I can write a lot more, but it will probably take a very long time. I hope my story is approved. Thanks! And finally what? Can he really be gay and not want to admit it? At all ... is it my fault? I feel very confused and deceived. I can write a lot more, but it will probably take a very long time. I hope my story is approved. Thanks! And finally what? Can he really be gay and not want to admit it? At all ... is it my fault? I feel very confused and deceived. I can write a lot more, but it will probably take a very long time. I hope my story is approved. Thanks!

Last Updated
August 15, 2020
Author:
coachhoiberg

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