I Feel Guilty About Everything That Happened.

Hello, first I want to ask the moderators of the site to post my story, because there really is no one to share, and ask for advice. Thanks in advance. I'm a 16-year-old girl, and usually when something happens, I look for guilt in myself and blame myself. Yesterday we went out in the company (me and 4 boys), my boyfriend is in my company, and there we thought to go for a walk somewhere, because it was warm outside and two girls came. Now to clarify about girls, they are 1 year younger than me, and some things happened 8 months ago, the two started telling a lot of lies about me, insulting me, and getting me involved in a bunch of scandals in which I came out guilty, and many more did they set me up against them that would have beaten me, and insulted me. I didn't pay attention and I had no intention of getting involved at all, I didn't want to involve any of the boys, they knew otherwise and protected me as much as they could. These girls accused me of filling the boys' heads with nonsense about them so that they wouldn't want them and the like, and that's not the case, I didn't say a single insulting word about them until what they got me into. Even then, I was silent and polite to them. In the summer, one of them started dating us (she had obviously quarreled with the other, and she said so), she hadn't made me as sick as the other, but she was still guilty and I was very upset that those from the company called her. without thinking about my opinion on whether I want it. Well, I didn't say anything, I closed my eyes and thought it had changed for the better and it's not like that anymore, but I always had one thing in mind about things that could happen again and not trust her. She started insulting every day, the other with all sorts of nasty insults, I didn't say anything except that I defended her by saying not to insult her because I don't hear insults. Everything was fine until last week, when it started again with insults to ME without any meaning, various innuendos, and I didn't say anything, because it didn't make sense knowing what was going to happen, I also answered in witty ways so that he couldn't say that I insulted her. I was patient, I was patient, but I'm tired of people like her, and I shared it with one of the boys who is my best friend. His opinion was like mine, that she was very hypocritical, and so on. This girl reconciled with the other after all the insults he tells me about her, I still don't know what friends they are. It was especially special to me, that the boy said she was hypocritical, etc., but kept calling her. I told him last week that this one comes to me more because of the things he says, and if the other one comes, I won't stay with them at all.

(You don't think I'm being capricious or anything, I just can't let it go after everything that's happened). He replied that there was no intention of the other coming and said some insults. Yes, but until last night. As we sat they BOTH came, I said nothing like the others. One asks me something about an object and I cut it off with the words that it doesn't affect her. And when they started, it was as if they were just waiting for me to say something and start insulting. They said tactical threats, and insinuations about me. I replied without using insults, telling them that apparently this was the only thing they could insult. I told the boys I wasn't coming (I think the reason was obvious, I didn't want to listen to insults and get involved) and only my boyfriend stayed with me, and my best friend called them to go with them and left me. I felt very bad and slightly sold out of everything he said about them. And now I was overwhelmed by a guilt about the feelings I had then and when I told my friend that this boy caught my eye not because of those two, but because of his attitude towards me, which I did not really expect. I don't know why I feel so bad that I said it, but it was hell. Well this is my story, please comment, it is very important to me, thank you. And now I was overwhelmed by a guilt about the feelings I had then and when I told my friend that this boy caught my eye not because of those two, but because of his attitude towards me, which I did not really expect. I don't know why I feel so bad that I said it, but it was hell. Well this is my story, please comment, it is very important to me, thank you. And now I was overwhelmed by a guilt about the feelings I had then and when I told my friend that this boy caught my eye not because of those two, but because of his attitude towards me, which I did not really expect. I don't know why I feel so bad that I said it, but it was hell. Well this is my story, please comment, it is very important to me, thank you.