I Don't Trust The Person I Love

The Story

Hi, I don't know how to start, but of course the title. I have a friend of 5 years, I know that it seems strange to you to be with someone for 5 years and not trust him, but it happens sometimes. The truth is that at first he lied to me about small things and I concluded that I did not trust him very much. I forgave him, I tried to forget about this little thing, everything was going well, but after 2 years he lied to me again for something like that. And from then until today I doubt his words. There was a time when I forgot about everything and we were happy, but until recently I stopped trusting him again. Just for no reason. I didn't believe where he was, if someone called him I didn't believe he was the person who said, I checked his phone (I know it's a stupid thing to do, but I felt he was lying to me and I wanted to know, otherwise I would live in delusion) . We quarreled very fiercely over my distrust of him, I told him I didn't trust him because he had lied to me before about small things, but lies are lies.

We got along because, despite everything, there is still thrill and love between us. But now one thing is bothering me and I feel like I need help. He didn't give me reason to doubt him, but I still don't believe him. I feel that there is something and I do not know what it is, there is nothing different in it to doubt, but I have a strange feeling. I don't know if it's paranoia anymore ... I want to be with him for many more years, but how can it happen when I constantly doubt him. I know that a relationship without trust does not work, but I do not believe it and it is. I torture him and myself. I'm sad, I want to believe him, but something stops me. If I leave him, I will die of grief, and when I am with him, I die internally again. I'm in a hole and there's no way out. Please advice, I am very sad ... because he lied to me before about small things, but lies are lies. We got along because, despite everything, there is still thrill and love between us. But now one thing is bothering me and I feel like I need help. He didn't give me reason to doubt him, but I still don't believe him. I feel that there is something and I do not know what it is, there is nothing different in it to doubt, but I have a strange feeling. I don't know if he's paranoid anymore ... I want to be with him for many more years, but how can it happen when I constantly doubt him. I know that a relationship without trust does not work, but I do not believe it and it is. I torture him and myself. I'm sad, I want to believe him, but something stops me.

If I leave him, I will die of grief, and when I am with him, I die internally again. I'm in a hole and there's no way out. Please advice, I am very sad ... because he lied to me before about small things, but lies are lies. We got along because, despite everything, there is still thrill and love between us. But now one thing is bothering me and I feel like I need help. He didn't give me reason to doubt him, but I still don't believe him. I feel that there is something and I do not know what it is, there is nothing different in it to doubt, but I have a strange feeling. I don't know if he's paranoid anymore ... I want to be with him for many more years, but how can it happen when I constantly doubt him. I know that a relationship without trust does not work, but I do not believe and it is. I torture him and myself. I'm sad, I want to believe him, but something stops me. If I leave him, I will die of grief, and when I am with him, I die internally again. I'm in a hole and there's no way out. Please advice, I am very sad ... We got along because, despite everything, there is still thrill and love between us.

But now one thing is bothering me and I feel like I need help. He didn't give me reason to doubt him, but I still don't believe him. I feel that there is something and I do not know what it is, there is nothing different in it to doubt, but I have a strange feeling. I don't know if he's paranoid anymore ... I want to be with him for many more years, but how can it happen when I constantly doubt him. I know that a relationship without trust does not work, but I do not believe it and it is. I torture him and myself. I'm sad, I want to believe him, but something stops me. If I leave him, I will die of grief, and when I am with him, I die internally again. I'm in a hole and there's no way out. Please advice, I am very sad ... We got along because, despite everything, there is still thrill and love between us. But now one thing is bothering me and I feel like I need help. He didn't give me reason to doubt him, but I still don't believe him. I feel that there is something and I do not know what it is, there is nothing different in it to doubt, but I have a strange feeling. I don't know if he's paranoid anymore ... I want to be with him for many more years, but how can it happen when I constantly doubt him. I know that a relationship without trust does not work, but I do not believe and it is. I torture him and myself. I'm sad, I want to believe him, but something stops me. If I leave him, I will die of grief, and when I am with him, I die internally again. I'm in a hole and there's no way out. Please advice, I am very sad ... that I need help. He didn't give me reason to doubt him, but I still don't believe him. I feel that there is something and I do not know what it is, there is nothing different in it to doubt, but I have a strange feeling. I don't know if he's paranoid anymore ... I want to be with him for many more years, but how can it happen when I constantly doubt him. I know that a relationship without trust does not work, but I do not believe and it is. I torture him and myself. I'm sad, I want to believe him, but something stops me. If I leave him, I will die of grief, and when I am with him, I die internally again. I'm in a hole and there's no way out. Please advice, I am very sad ... that I need help. He didn't give me reason to doubt him, but I still don't believe him. I feel that there is something and I do not know what it is, there is nothing different in it to doubt, but I have a strange feeling.

I don't know if it's paranoia anymore ... I want to be with him for many more years, but how can it happen when I constantly doubt him. I know that a relationship without trust does not work, but I do not believe and it is. I torture him and myself. I'm sad, I want to believe him, but something stops me. If I leave him, I will die of grief, and when I am with him, I die internally again. I'm in a hole and there's no way out. Please advice, I am very sad ... I want to be with him for many more years, but how can it happen when I constantly doubt him. I know that a relationship without trust does not work, but I do not believe and it is. I torture him and myself. I'm sad, I want to believe him, but something stops me. If I leave him, I will die of grief, and when I am with him, I die internally again. I'm in a hole and there's no way out. Please advice, I am very sad ... I want to be with him for many more years, but how can it happen when I constantly doubt him. I know that a relationship without trust does not work, but I do not believe and it is. I torture him and myself. I'm sad, I want to believe him, but something stops me. If I leave him, I will die of grief, and when I am with him, I die internally again. I'm in a hole and there's no way out. Please advice, I am very sad ...

Last Updated
August 18, 2020
Author:
ahnoreclis

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