So ... I've been reading stories here for a long time, I've always wondered if there are people who feel the same way ... I don't know ... There are probably people who are much worse than me. I don't feel sorry for myself, I'm not such a person, I just don't have a stable psyche, so I still can't get on my feet ... My mother always calls me because she's just not well, she earns it for me, my father only if the problem is in me, I have done stupid things, etc. I've wondered several times, is it worth living? I'm not saying that no one loves me, I just don't think it makes sense. I'm almost 15 years old. Tell you about school - I have mostly 5s, my class doesn't work. As a status, I can define myself as an outsider, behaving like an adult, which is not to the liking of my slimy students, behaving like 6/7, although perhaps unconsciously. So, potential for friends are 5 (others hate me because I'm different, I'm sick 1/4 of the year and they think I'm just pretending, they talk about what a muffin I am and so on behind my back, they think it's not normal for our age to have friend, they annoy me, insult me, attack me, break me from within) Let's say their name is P (the only boy), A, E, I, D E is the NDP of the hated girls in my class, he is constantly with them and not I can be with her because they interrupt my conversations with her and she plays me. P is overweight, everyone makes fun of him, but he's cute. I'm happy, he's a friend, but my nasty classmates will cut me off with ridicule (honestly, I don't care anymore, but I won't feel any better). And it's frivolous, I don't think it matters much to me, it just uses me for company when others are busy. And pretend he doesn't know me, It means a lot to me, we've known each other for 6 years, there is a problem with my stomach, I also make remarks, and she asks me with misunderstanding, "Why do you care about me? She is so sweet and naive ... I don't care that she doesn't sleep on me, I love her, nothing that doesn't pay attention to me. E is a friend when AI (not above, but another) is not here, and when AI comes I am gone, my mother has a problem with me (I don't know what) and does not let her go out with me. Once we both tried cigarettes for the first time on their terrace. She suggested, and then while I was sick she told the whole class that she caught me writing on their balcony ... Sneaky ... I want advice on how to get people to accept me, at least to tell me everything in my eyes, no behind my back .. I want friends, I'm thinking of starting to move with P, and to think what they want !!! How do I want someone like me from Tarnovo to be able to contact me,
1 shawnandgina69 answered
Man and I are different from the people around me and can be seen for miles. In my class I get along well with everyone, but I have a certain "group" there, with which I move, because we have the same sense of humor and during the year we became close friends. My problem is with the people in my neighborhood who were my company. It turned out that they had never been my friends. It's just that when there are a lot of people in a group who are too similar (not to say they're the same), they get angry at the different one and look for a reason to lose it - like you do with smoking. And it's easy with the boy in your class, especially if he doesn't have many friends there either, just ask him if he wants to sit together for an hour or research his interests and you'll find a topic to talk to. I hope I was helpful. Girl, 14