Hello, everyone. I have no idea where to start or what to write, but I need someone to listen to me and say something ... whatever. I'm a 17-year-old girl who hasn't found herself yet, doesn't know what she wants, what she likes, what she wants to do, etc. My problem is that I am always influenced by people, I kind of want to be like a certain type of person, I stick to it, then someone else will make me happy, completely different from the previous one and so on. I don't know what I like to do or what I like, I don't have talents, character ... I just exist, I want to live. I constantly feel some pressure in me (I can't explain it exactly, I hope you understand me) as if I want to cry, to explode, to scream, but I can't. I can't be really happy for the reason that I don't know what I really want and what I like to do and what style of music I like ... I feel that I am superfluous, there is no use for me, I am not a good student, I do not do anything useful .. A few months ago I had a lot problems with both my parents and my psyche. I did a lot of things that hurt me a lot. I destroyed myself and there's nothing I can do. I have never been a strong character, I have never had dreams and goals. I know you can imagine how there can be a person without dreams ... that's me. I want to help me, give advice, write anything to her, bad, good just say something. I really can't live like this anymore, I'm struggling and it hurts. I hope you don't think I'm another teenager who's been filming and drooling because I've been like this for a long time. Thank you in advance and I am grateful to these people,
1 morimura answered
The time in which you grew up and in which you live is hectic, and filled with information that you take for granted, with opportunities that are far more accessible than years ago. Keywords - 'many' and 'easy'. At the same time, however, you have no real contact with the diversity that the Internet offers you as information, but only with what your environment offers, and you try to adapt to it, which leads to internal contradictions. You have the information, look inside yourself, feel yourself and choose what suits you, what you feel makes you calm about your choice ... It's like me wearing a red dress - I won't feel good, I don't even have to try, because I know, just seeing this color, that I don't like it, while when I see white or cream color - it's calm and sweet :) This is the more rational option, the other is to try ... but you guess that it is impossible to try everything, incl. people (when it comes to choosing a partner or friends), or unhealthy things like drugs to find out that something / someone is not for you. Rely on your intuition, which works only for you and will not let you down to suffer. Intuition is the inner God in man, and he knows everything. For example, when you meet someone, your mind does not know him and cannot judge whether you like him, but your subconscious (intuition) already knows if that person is right for you, hence the inexplicable attraction or repulsion between people. Use the same principle for everything, feel yourself, play different genres of music and feel what makes you feel good, to resonate with your vibrations, as well as with books, with movies ... I emphasize these things because, to a large extent, people judge someone's personality by their tastes in music, literature, and movies. Then you will come up with ideas for more things to expand your horizons such as sports and hobbies, for example. I started to form my tastes at the age of 13, although my environment was very different, I myself, from somewhere (from a past life, left information in my DNA) had an attraction to a specific music such as vibrations, not so much genre, now genre, my tastes have expanded, certain stories, respectively authors, etc. etc. Feel yourself! although my environment was very different, I myself, from somewhere (from a past life, left information in my DNA) had an attraction to a specific music such as vibrations, not so much genre, now genre, my tastes have expanded, certain stories , respectively authors, etc. etc. Feel yourself! although my environment was very different, I myself, from somewhere (from a past life, left information in my DNA) had an attraction to a specific music such as vibrations, not so much genre, now genre, my tastes have expanded, certain stories , respectively authors, etc. etc. Feel yourself!