I Don't Know Whether To Break Up With My Boyfriend And What To Do

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Hi, I'm an 18-year-old girl. Soon my boyfriend and I are 2 months old, but I feel that I feel almost nothing towards him. I liked him about 2 months before we left, but before that I was very hurt by my ex-boyfriend and I had a hard time overcoming our separation ... or at least I thought I had succeeded. We broke up with him 10 months ago and shortly after that he went abroad. He came back a few days ago and we are constantly spotted on the streets. When I see him, I have the feeling that my heart will jump out. Besides, he and my friend are from the same company, they see each other sometimes and that makes it even weirder. I feel really confused, I don't know what to do. My friend cares a lot about me, he didn't go to study abroad because of me, he works and sits in the same city to be together. Rare are such guys and I want to give him a chance, and also myself, but I just think of my ex, who broke up with me without blinking, given that he knew how much I loved him and how many things I had done for him. I have no hope that I can be with him again, but I feel that if I had this opportunity I would be, although I know that I can feel the pain he has caused me again. For a few days I started thinking about him for absolutely no reason, I have no idea why.

Finally he came back here and it made me even weirder, I started thinking about him even more. I don't want to be with someone while I love another, I don't know if I love him at all, even what causes these constant thoughts. I just suffocate, nothing is done to me, I just think about it and I suffer terribly. I don't want to give my friend vain hopes, who is ready for anything for me and to ruin my relationship for the sake of a man like my ex. But on the other hand, I feel like I'm even busy when I'm with my boyfriend, I don't want to be together for as long a day as it sounds. I know that my feelings do not depend on me, but I still feel terrible and I do not want to do this with a real and good person like him. He keeps telling me that he would do anything for me, and that he always wants us to be together, and I don't even know how to tell him that I need some time and to be alone, because I know I'm going to hurt him a hell of a lot. I am extremely confused, please if anyone has been in a similar situation to advise me something, because I really do not know what to do ... Thanks in advance! that even when I'm with my boyfriend, I don't want to be together for as long a day as it sounds. I know that my feelings do not depend on me, but I still feel terrible and I do not want to do this with a real and good person like him. He keeps telling me that he would do anything for me, and that he always wants us to be together, and I don't even know how to tell him that I need some time and to be alone, because I know I'm going to hurt him a hell of a lot. I am extremely confused, please if anyone has been in a similar situation to advise me something, because I really do not know what to do ... Thanks in advance! that even when I'm with my boyfriend, I don't want to be together for as long a day as it sounds. I know that my feelings do not depend on me, but I still feel terrible and I do not want to do this with a real and good person like him.

He keeps telling me that he would do anything for me, and that he always wants us to be together, and I don't even know how to tell him that I need some time and to be alone, because I know I'm going to hurt him a hell of a lot. I am extremely confused, please if anyone has been in a similar situation to advise me something, because I really do not know what to do ... Thanks in advance! but I still feel terrible and I don't want to do that to a real and good person like him. He keeps telling me that he would do anything for me, and that he always wants us to be together, and I don't even know how to tell him that I need some time and to be alone, because I know I'm going to hurt him a hell of a lot. I am extremely confused, please if anyone has been in a similar situation to advise me something, because I really do not know what to do ... Thanks in advance! but I still feel terrible and I don't want to do that to a real and good person like him. He keeps telling me that he would do anything for me, and that he always wants us to be together, and I don't even know how to tell him that I need some time and to be alone, because I know I'm going to hurt him a hell of a lot. I am extremely confused, please if anyone has been in a similar situation to advise me something, because I really do not know what to do ... Thanks in advance!

Last Updated
September 10, 2020
Author:
lyra_law

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