I Don't Know How To Handle Myself ...

   Hello! I had a very serious mental problem ... and honestly I haven't completely overcome it yet. I don't know if she would define her condition as depression, because although this word is used very often, people don't really realize the seriousness of the condition (if you're in it at all). You had a pretty bad experience, I want to ask you, do you think that if you go to study it will help you? Think about it, because it could get worse when you are away from your relatives. However, if this is your dream and will help you overcome your problem, you should do it. You will find new friends and eventually indulge in learning. In any case, you should talk to your mother - even if she doesn't understand you! Tell her that without professional help you will not be able to cope, tell her to stop repeating to you that you will recover on your own. Tell her, that if she herself notices that you don't communicate, that you don't go out, and that you've become a "zombie," that must tell her something. There are things that cannot be overcome simply. If not a psychologist, then at least you should have a person next to you who will listen and understand you. Tell that to your mother, too. And if you are really convinced that studying abroad will help you, fight! I still don't know if you will study somewhere in Bulgaria from the autumn, but if not another option is to go on a brigade. If you have more questions, ask! I hope you can handle it. I tell you from experience that at such a moment you MUST find strength in you. I know how hard it is, but find a way. Whatever is! to listen to you and understand. Tell that to your mother, too. And if you are really convinced that studying abroad will help you, fight! I still don't know if you will study somewhere in Bulgaria in the fall, but if not another option is to go on a brigade. If you have more questions, ask! I hope you can handle it. I tell you from experience that at such a moment you MUST find strength in you. I know how hard it is, but find a way. Whatever is! to listen to you and understand. Tell that to your mother, too. And if you are really convinced that studying abroad will help you, fight! I still don't know if you will study somewhere in Bulgaria from the autumn, but if not another option is to go on a brigade. If you have more questions, ask! I hope you can handle it. I tell you from experience that at such a moment you MUST find strength in you. I know how hard it is, but find a way. Whatever is!

   The fact that your girlfriend died right in front of your eyes is a kind of horror ... Obviously it's hard for you to go through it, but I'm not sure if a psychologist will help you 100% .. If you can't fight it yourself .. and he will not succeed! That's what I think ... Yes, I'll listen to you ... he can give you some advice, but I think the best solution is to force yourself to go out ... to meet people. It may be difficult at first to feel like an outsider, but that will pass. As for your dream ... first you have to find out the exact reasons you want to go there ... if it's for education, if you have the opportunity - go ... but keep in mind that this will not fix your problems. If you are so emotional it will be difficult for you! What you imagine has nothing to do with what it really is ...

   Years ago I had a car accident and I was stressed. For years I couldn't even drive normally, I was sweating, I had a headache, I had the feeling that they would flash again and I didn't sleep normally. I got mad. At that time, my daughter was also entering puberty and she was quite nervous. I took her to a pediatric neurologist, who explained to me that this was normal for her and that if I wanted I could give her something to calm her down. I took esbericum from the pharmacy - this is an extract of St. John's wort. All herbal product. I started drinking it in parallel with her. After the first month, I started driving without fear. I drank it for three months and then I enrolled in the courses, got a license and did not get out of the car. I am writing all this to you because since they do not understand you and support your relatives, you have to help yourself. If you have a doctor there talk to him too, otherwise there are quite good herbal products in pharmacies that can help you. And you are already 19 - old enough to start work and support yourself and decide for yourself what you want from life and how to achieve it. That you want to study is great. Do not give up. Aim for your goal. If it doesn't happen this year, it could happen next year. Once you have access to internet searches, there should be a consultation somewhere for people who have experienced similar things. It occurs to me that I have seen such an advertisement, but unfortunately I can not remember where. Once you have access to internet searches, there should be a consultation somewhere for people who have experienced similar things. It occurs to me that I have seen such an advertisement, but unfortunately I can not remember where. Once you have access to internet searches, there should be a consultation somewhere for people who have experienced similar things. It occurs to me that I have seen such an advertisement, but unfortunately I can not remember where.

   The author: Thank you for the comments :) to number 3 yes, I took my book after the accident. When I drive a car I am not afraid but otherwise if others. I am so scared that I even cry and I can't travel with my eyes open, I always close my eyes and lie down in the back seat. I will consult the personal doctor and I don't know about any medicines otherwise ... I can't do that all my life

   I'm 3. Consult at all costs, and don't leave things like that. You are still young, and your nerves must serve you for a long time. And once you realize that it is so, it will be much easier for you to cope. I wish you happiness and much, much health.

   I have a lot of problems too. it weighs more on me that I don't see a way out. I recommend you to look for friends. try an internet site if you have the ability. and yet be careful that you can come across bad ones there as well and that will be unpleasant. not a solution to the problem but can help a little.

   Darling, I read your story and I wanted to tell you something .. Probably everyone tells you how difficult life is and you just have to cope ... But it's really hard to do it alone !!! And I, like you, do not share everything, I keep some things inside myself .. !! I just want to tell you that you are not always the problem for not talking ... it can't happen if the person against you doesn't predispose you and doesn't show that he cares about you! It's really hard and at some point you get tired I know ..! And it will be banal if I tell you "be strong" ... It's just that these difficult situations build your character even more ...! As for your parents, don't consider them, because their life is theirs and yours is yet to come ... there will come a day when they would hardly want to say "my daughter suffers because of me ... she can achieve something and I did not allow ..

   I'm so sorry about what happened to you. You know, I think your parents may be in financial trouble right now. I don't know how things really are, maybe they don't want to burden you with problems of this kind at the moment, but I guess that's the reason they can't let you go abroad and refuse to go to a psychologist (psychologists are expensive, Unfortunately). I know how hard it is to find friends and people you can share with. The only thing I can wish you (because I do not dare to give advice) is to keep fighting, to hold on to some goal - learning here, work, to try as much as you can, to keep communicating, to seek and to you believe that there will be someone to support and understand you.