Hello! I need advice ... three years ago I had to change schools and go to high school. I came across a class in which I could not "show" myself, ie I used to have friends with whom I could share almost everything, and in my current environment my opinion remains disregarded and my classmates are more prone to ridicule. I try to be helpful and not offend anyone, and in return I receive the daily frivolous attitude and ridicule of my classmates. When I do something, whatever it is, the mockery starts - about how I do it, how I look, how I talk, etc., which affects my self-esteem ... I look in the mirror and I say to myself: "what they don't like" and self-torture. When I get together with my old friends, it's like I'm in another world ... they laugh at my jokes, they respect me and enjoy talking to me as well as me to them. At first I told myself that I would get used to my new class, but I see that this does not work. I feel that I have no more strength for ridicule and gossip. The energy that my friends and family give me is no longer enough and I am looking for other ways out, but I can't find them. It may sound crazy, but sometimes I think about suicide because I don't find what I used to find the meaning of my life.
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I understand you very well, because I am in almost the same situation. When I'm with my people, I feel great. But it just doesn't work with classmates. In time, however, I decided not to pay attention. As a piece of advice, I could just give you not to care. You say what you want without thinking about the consequences. Sooner or later you will be accepted as one of them, but during this time you must be yourself. People feel who is pretending and shy away from this type of people. What class are you in? If you are about to apply or have already decided what you are going to study, just do it. Personally, I am in the 11th grade and I have the desire to study law after the 12th grade. I use the time when I get bored at school to study topics or other subjects. Just set a goal and you will see how nothing will matter. Focus on the lessons, and in the meantime go out with your old friends. Nobody said you had to go to school at any cost. Good luck.