Tell yourself now that I'm a dumb goose and I don't know what I want from life ... that's right, you're right, I obviously don't know. I've had a serious friend for 2 years. If I forgot to mention, I'm 21. So my boyfriend and I are talking about a serious future and other things that normal serious boyfriends can talk about. I exclude stories about children and marriage because I realize that it is too early for me and I am in a child's mind. I'm still drawn to parties, etc. In short, I have not made a living. I have never cheated before, even with a thought, let alone something else. Recently, however, I met an incredibly nice man who is about 6 years older than me. From the beginning we talked only in a friendly way with him. Tell me a lot of things that I honestly don't want to know about, because the personal lives of others don't work for me. So she told me she had a serious girlfriend of 8 years, he thought about family, etc. It so happened that we got drunk one night and kissed. I admit I liked it, but I also felt great guilt towards both my boyfriend and his girlfriend, in the end the girl is not to blame for anything. The next day we went to work. At one point his phone rang and it was SHE as I guessed. Naturally, he stepped aside so as not to hear my voice, and then remarked to me to be more careful. And I reacted like a first signal light, told him not to make remarks of this type to me, because I do not carry a crystal ball with me to know who calls him when and when I should be silent, and I emphasized that there is nothing between us. However, believe me in his eyes, I read that he did not agree with me on the second part of the short tirade. He spent the evening when he had to go home with me, we got drunk, we had sex, we admitted that we liked each other (it's true and it wasn't just under the influence of alcohol), so tomorrow we will have a serious conversation, I told him that at this stage my serious relationship is a coincidence, not because I need a lot. By no means do I say that I have no feelings for mine, but what I feel for the other is somehow strong and I do not understand each other. I have plans for life and so far knocking on wood what I fought for has happened to my liking. I didn't want a serious relationship because I'm going to study abroad soon, and I don't believe anyone is sitting and waiting for me. I don't know about 2 years later, but tomorrow I will have a conversation with number 2. On top of everything, he started hinting at various things, he is in love, but something stops me from being with him and this thing is the unwillingness to break up with mine because of him. But at the same time I want to spend some time with the other. Did anyone understand me
1 kittyhot2000 answered
We understand you - you want to try with number 2, but why should you break with number 1? Just screw them both, then men don't deserve anything else. So be careful that they don't understand what you're doing and if you're cool - go!