I Do Not Know What I Want.

The Story

Hello ... I don't know where to start in general, but I can't stand it anymore. I can't love anyone. At the moment I think there is no worse person than me. I mislead people all the time ... I've happened to fall for a boy and the moment he admits to me how he feels about me, the attraction disappears ... and when this person pulls away from me in order to forget me, I want him again. He pays attention to me and I still don't want him. I know the problem is with me, but I don't know what it is. When I decide that I finally liked someone, I start wanting him, and he makes me push myself away .. whether in this case I'm guilty again .. I wonder .. So far I haven't had friend, but I'm not isolated from male attention at all .. the problem is that I'm very capricious and I can't just can't love anyone .. It's a terrible feeling I think that I will never fall in love, but I want him so much, I want to love ... When I see a handsome boy I like him and then it passes me does not last long. There is a boy at the moment who does everything for me, behaves nicely and closes his eyes to many things, the problem is that I don't like him and I don't want to be with him just because of his good attitude towards me, I can't manipulate him on this way .. I have a conscience. I like one of his friends visually and in character, but I can't do that to him either ... In general, I'm really confused and I don't know what it's due to ....

No matter how selfish it sounds, no one can impress me, and even if someone does it, he withdraws himself ... I turn in a circle There is a boy at the moment who does everything for me, behaves nicely and closes his eyes to many things, the problem is that I don't like him and I don't want to be with him just because of his good attitude towards me, I can't manipulate him on this way .. I have a conscience. I like one of his friends visually and in character, but I can't do that to him either ... In general, I'm really confused and I don't know what it's due to .... No matter how selfish it sounds, no one can impress me, and even if someone does it, he withdraws himself ... I turn in a circle There is a boy at the moment who does everything for me, behaves nicely and closes his eyes to many things, the problem is that I don't like him and I don't want to be with him just because of his good attitude towards me, I can't manipulate him on this way .. I have a conscience. I like one of his friends visually and in character, but I can't do that to him either ... In general, I'm really confused and I don't know what it's due to .... No matter how selfish it sounds, no one can impress me, and even if someone does it, he withdraws himself ... I turn in a circle

Last Updated
August 30, 2020
Author:
diplo

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