I Didn't Show Him How Much I Love Him ... And I'm Only Now Realizing The Reality!

The Story

Hello .. thanks in advance to everyone who will respond .. ..my story in brief..3 years I went with a wonderful boy .. I went 400 km from our hometown to study..and one fine day he decided that everything should end .. he told me that it was best for both of us .. He gave me thousands of reasons ..which I seemingly accepted..without thinking I tell you that I deserved it..by these years I treated him like a stranger..I didn't show him how much I love him..and I only now realize the reality .. I cheated on him .. he caught me..he begged me not to do it anymore .. he cried is to stay with him .. where and what I did not ask he did not give it to me .. several times it happened to me to catch me with coca .. then for the first and last time he allowed himself to slap me .. here's what I had a man next to me ..he was ready to enter the fire for me .. And our plans for the future..they were the best I remember .. We haven't been together for a little over half a year..everyone has their own life ... I deliberately avoid to go home so as not to see him .. several times through tears I asked him to get together .. but he is adamant .. he says that he feels calmer without me .. that he was better that the one with which is currently good and dedicated .. as I have never been .. There is the problem that I can not always run away from the place where I grew up .. almost every time I go home we see each other .. we talk about the past things .. we remember how nice it was together .. we have sex and so much..and all this is repeated many times .. on the eve of the New Year holidays we quarreled very fiercely ... he shouted in my face that last year was a torture to be with me ...that he no longer feels a drop of that love in which he once swore .. after a few days he called me and told me to go to ... I felt that something was wrong and ran .. I found him drunk and drugged ... he cried again and said that he loved me .. for 5 months we had not heard from each other..no seen until last night ..... He started drinking a lot..I also hear from our common acquaintances that from time to time he was shaking. .and I don't know what to think .. neither the mind .. nor the heart is in my favor ... I can't decide for myself how to act .... If only I believed that he loves me .. and that he doesn't look for me only for sex ..again once again I would swallow my pride and talk to him about us ..but the problem is that I can't judge how he feels about things..is because he is tired of the same thing for 3 years and that's why you are now has disbanded the chain in pubs and restaurants ..or because he suffers from our separation, he does all this .. The other day he told me that love like ours can't end like that..he said that we will be like some of our acquaintances..even after they broke up 3 years later .. "My request to you is to comment on what has been written .. I will follow the comments regularly and I hope that someone will give me guidance on how to proceed .. although I guess what will be your reactions .. please do not judge me too harshly ....please don't judge me too harshly ....please don't judge me too harshly ....

Last Updated
October 25, 2020
Author:
PARA3122

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