I Did It And I'm Sorry!

The Story

Hi! I decided to write here because I don't have people close to me, it's the only place I can share my problems. I'd be happy if you could give me some useful advice because it's a pretty tough situation. I'm a 17-year-old girl. I had a friend we'd been with for two years. At first, I thought it was my greatest love, that this man loves me and cares about me. Believed. I believed and gave absolutely everyone thinking it was true love. We used to go out a lot, see each other all the time, take care of me. He gave me caress, attention, tenderness, and a bunch of beautiful words. At first, he didn't push me for sex, but over time things changed. He was starting to make hints at me, push me, and suffocate me with this topic. I understand it, it's okay that he wanted us to do it, but not to pressure one guy. I was a fool. From the strong emotions, feelings, and pressure - yes, I did! It was so unbearable, I was in a lot of pain, there was blood, and he was terribly rude. He was dragging him all over, slapping me, doing it too fast. I felt... like an idiot. And what happened? A few days later, he left me. The man who claimed to love me more than anyone, that he would always be there for me - leave me on the phone. He told me I was bad in bed, that I wasn't satisfying him. And besides, he told everyone in the class that I was a full tree, that my butt was too big and my breasts very small. Everyone talks about it and laughs at me, they make fun of me (there's a reason). What am I supposed to do? I'm so sorry about that! Where was my mind? Where? The only person who knows about this is Mom. I can't believe it. I want this to be a dream. My first time was with the person who least deserved this. How did I let that happen? Summer will pass, and when September comes- then what? Everybody knows about it because he blew it. I feel like crap because I let that happen. What do I do when he starts school? Everybody's going to attack me. Thank you to everyone who has taken the time to read this! I'm going to ask the editors to publish my story because it's very me, I can't handle it. I need some advice.

Last Updated
June 24, 2020
Author:
kykybabyy

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