I Collapse Mentally

The Story

Hello. I will drive straight. I am 22 and he is 41. He has a wife and a child of 8 years. He has been like that for a long time, for the simple reason that the only conversations he has with his wife are to give her money. He says he finds everything else in me. We have been together for 4 months. I live alone. Over time, it started to hurt every time he left in the evening. I don't want to fall asleep and wake up alone. There is no one to say "good night" to, no one to hug in the morning. Actually, I have nothing. This loneliness began to weigh on me, because of which we quarrel quite often. I understand that he is coming home because of his child and I do not judge him for that. I understand that it can't be divided in two, but sometimes my nerves can't stand it. Apparently, because I keep everything to myself. Don't judge me, I know I don't belong there and I've told him many times. But he doesn't leave me. And I don't want to leave me. It also weighs on me to take it away from his child. And at the same time I want it, a lot. I do not know what to do. I tried to separate, he didn't stop calling and writing, he finally came home. His absence kills me. I see my girlfriends living with their husbands. They also think about children.

Something he won't give me. We have to hide, and I want to show it to the whole world, to show how happy I am with it. All this eats me from the inside, makes me indifferent to everything and erases my smile more and more with each passing day. We have to hide, and I want to show it to the whole world, to show how happy I am with it. All this eats me from the inside, makes me indifferent to everything and erases my smile more and more with each passing day. We have to hide, and I want to show it to the whole world, to show how happy I am with it. All this eats me from the inside, makes me indifferent to everything and erases my smile more and more with each passing day.

Last Updated
July 26, 2020
Author:
annahoney24

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