I Cheated A Few Times And I'm Not Sick!

The Story

Hi, I'll start with the fact that my boyfriend and I have been together for a little over half a year. In the summer I was very attached to him. I was very jealous of him and generally wanted us to be together all the time. I caught him writing to someone a few times, but I didn't tell him, although I was very sick. Summer has passed and there are no more girls, but there are other activities. He doesn't pay any attention to me. We're together all the time, but he does other things. I'm like invisible. I'm telling him, he's supposed to be listening to me. This has been going on for several weeks. It's as if I'm not so attached to him anymore. I try to imagine that we broke up and I don't feel sick, but when I think about our memories I get horrible ... out of boredom that he doesn't pay attention to me, I cheated on him with one. At the same time, I wrote to 3-4 other guys, supposedly to arrange meetings, but I refused at the last moment, that he would not take to understand, but recently slept with a man who is married, with one child. I don't know if we will do it again, but if something happens I won't stop. I will do it because I want to and because I do not receive any attention from my friends, and I enjoy it more. The strange thing is that I don't feel bad about anything. The strange thing, however, is that this man has taken over my mind and I think about him constantly and everywhere, and so even a few times I forget that I have a friend. Everything is terribly confused. I love him and I want to be with him, but as I do not receive any attention and constantly make small remarks to me and quarrels occur between us, it's as if I change my mind and tell myself that I will abandon him a little more, but then I remember for all our memories and I refuse to discard it. It's very hard for me, I'm very confused and distracted because I think about it all the time. Friends say that since I already had thoughts about whether to dump him and that I had cheated several times already and I don't think about him, but about someone else (with whom I have no future), I should have left him. I try to think only of the other, so as not to think of my friend. I guess if I think about the other one for another 1-2 weeks, I will have forgotten my friend somewhat. I just want my mind to be elsewhere, I don't know if you understand me ... what should I do now ...?

P.S. And don't tell me to talk to him, because I've talked more than once and I get the answer that the things he does are more important to him than I am. that if I think about the other for another 1-2 weeks, I will have forgotten my friend to some extent. I just want my mind to be elsewhere, I don't know if you understand me ... what should I do now ...? P.S. And don't tell me to talk to him, because I've talked more than once and I get the answer that the things he does are more important to him than I am. that if I think about the other for another 1-2 weeks, I will have forgotten my friend to some extent. I just want my mind to be elsewhere, I don't know if you understand me ... what should I do now ...? P.S. And don't tell me to talk to him, because I've talked to him more than once and I get the answer that the things he does are more important to him than I am.

Last Updated
August 25, 2020
Author:
indra.sugiarto

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