I Can't Stop Overeating!

The Story

Hello! I am a 29-year-old woman. I write almost at midnight - after another overeating. Today, at least, I had an occasion - a celebration - but this is not an exception, but almost a rule in my life - to overeat like a pig in the evening. I have had problems with overeating for about 6-7 years. I'm talking about that emotional eating - when you eat without being hungry, but just to cram - salty, sweet, then salty again and so on .... to abdominal pain and I barely get off the table. I had such seizures last night - I feel lonely, I don't have a boyfriend, and I'm kind of sad. Otherwise, I don't have any big "drama" in my life, but I don't feel satisfied in general, with the things that have happened to me. I am saddened by many injustices, and maybe they were the result of my choices ... And here is a little history of overeating: Overall, it was triggered by 2 major disappointments in my life. The first disappointment rather made me give up food. I felt guilty and I had to punish myself, to feel bad, to suffer. For about 2 years I was constantly hungry - still on coffee, from which I shivered and did not have the strength to get out of bed, I was constantly hungry - I thought it should be so that I "succeed" (what I "succeeded" and I do not know), except that I was completely exhausted, even my brain wasn't working well - I forgot, I was constantly thinking about how hungry I was and I was amazed at my friends that they ate patties, that they could afford to eat all the chocolate - a complete shock! Disappointment number 2 followed - a love drama - which threw me to the other extreme - trampling to infinity. I saw that I was not happy with starvation then - and I decided to catch up with the food. I was so anxious and depressed - I gained a lot of weight at once - I ate an infinite amount and chose only high-calorie food - mostly sweet, and it was so bitter in my soul - I was very unhappy - really! I wanted to escape this trap, but I couldn't - I just wanted things to happen perfectly, and it didn't happen - at the same time I couldn't figure out why I gained a lot of weight - he impressed my closest ones, even my grandfather - who generally didn't notice anything. I looked like a dude and I couldn't stop. Since then - for about 7 years I still have bouts of overeating. I start to faint - when I feel offended, when I fail at something, when I think of something disappointing - I reach for the food. And I can't deal with this vicious habit. I keep telling myself that's not the way that food will not solve my problems. But I'm very worried about some things in my life, I'm constantly restless and I want to calm down, but I don't know how. And this food - it spoils my body, destroys me from within, I can't stand it - when I overeat - I don't choose, I feel some satisfaction - but it is very short-lived. I know that my problems are more mental, but this does not work - I realize things, but this is not enough incentive to stop - just keep going until the next time ... I write this whole triad, because it is more from confession, more than half of my conscious existence and marked a long period of my life that continues to this day. Give me advice on how I can cope - I want to clarify that I have no problem with sports - I even do - but my main problem is poor nutrition - how can I overcome it? Thanks to everyone who came to this line in their reading!

Last Updated
October 21, 2020
Author:
warmfreshpaint

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