I'm a 24-year-old girl and I don't feel well in my skin. I have always wondered why all my relatives expect me to be the most diligent, the most beautiful, BUT of course without using make-up (very light), and my clothes must be maximally covering my body. In our family, we have a relative who is an influential man, and in general, everyone on my mother's side and my father's comply with him. They even make me lock my profiles in a BB, Instagram, let alone upload a nice picture of myself. I hate to see my mother create some rules in the House and talk to me about morality, given that, with an apology, she also licks that relative's ass. Sometimes I get the feeling they're going to sell me just to like them. A friend may not even be a word to have. I'm banned from everything. I'm sorry, and I apologize to everyone for saying this, but I'm also having sex. I want to be with 10 boys. I need to be out of mistakes and whatever comes to mind. Now, basically, they're trying to fix me up and talk to me about some guy, a family friend of your guess Who. Two words about the him-an an ugly complex. I'm going to puke. I'm most sick that my parents never stood up for me. They humiliate me even in front of other people in order to create some kind of joke and make everyone laugh, but I get stuck in a lump in my throat and keep myself from crying out of frustration. I look at the parents of other girls and boys super good people, give them to go out with boys, and do whatever they want. I'm getting a lot of guys down, too, and I'm so happy until I know that if one of my parents finds out, I'm being kicked out of us. Leaving no way, I have no income, they hold me and I'm supposed to be preparing for some fictional business that doesn't even have revenue anymore. We are so bad the whole family that it would be a paradise for me to start some work even for 900 leva, but to be away from them. I'm ashamed that I haven't been with a boy for now. I'm ashamed, and I don't have any experience in sex, and I'm actually just thinking about it. I would be happy to tell your stories as a comment under mine and I will read them.