I Can't Live With Another Person And Be In A Relationship, I'm Suffocating!

The Story

I am a woman of 26 years. I've fallen in love, I've had 3 serious relationships so far, and I've tried to live with 2 of them and it just didn't work out. The ideal relationship even falls apart the moment we go under one roof, so I decided that I DO NOT and do NOT want to start a family, I just look for understanding and ask if there are people like me, do not scare me with cats (now I live with two dogs) and I'm not sick) and loneliness, because I can always find a company, another question.


I have my own apartment, which I furnished and bought myself. I love him and there is no way to leave him for anyone, the only way is if I go abroad for some reason, but my job is here at the moment and I am happy so that it is weak. From here it starts, few men would even bother to live in a foreign home, at least not a common one. Here comes the other BUT - even if they roll up, I can't stand it and at some point, I start to get annoyed. My habits are changing and I don't want to change them. I would say that I am a very orderly woman and I do things in a specific way. When a person enters the house begins or chaos, or a new order in one way or another, and I do not want and can not accept it, I begin to feel out of place and unhappy. For example, someone will be annoyed by dogs, and I'm used to them, and here's the problem.

 

Another thing I hate is an intrusion into personal space. I've never hidden a phone, secrets from boyfriends (nor them from me), but I'm not happy to know every second where I am, what's going on, let alone keep track of me. I'm not upset to say it, I just can't stand authorities. I have a lifestyle of my own, which is getting up for coffee and jogging / walking the dogs, going to work and coming home around 4 pm (we have our own business with two friends), shopping, going home, taking a nap, cooking (if I'm tired order food) and eating, time for myself (in which I train at home, read or watch TV/surf the web) and sleep.

 

On the weekends I clean and tidy the house and sometimes I go out with friends to have fun. I am happy with my life and I do not want to change it after 10 years. I can't control whether I will fall in love, I'm a person in feelings after all and I like serious relationships, one-dayers don't attract me, but just living together is not for me. I think I'm perfect myself. Are there people like me or have they been like me in the past? Women in particular? And I know that compromises are needed, but I'm obviously more selfish and I don't want those compromises, I'd better hook myself.

Last Updated
July 13, 2020
Author:
bad_herb