Hello! I am a girl almost 18. I spent 10th grade abroad and since I returned to Bulgaria for this school year, I am a different person. I was depressed while still abroad because of my mother's family problems, her boyfriend's, and my dull mood. I felt that I was bothering them, I was getting even worse. I became super aggressive. And I had great grades at school there, I had made friends, but after a while, I stopped talking at all and just went and went home. I also started arguing with my mother's friend. I hurt myself, I cried, I had insomnia. So, at one point I decided to return to Bulgaria alone and live with my father. The first three months were good - I had a little peace of mind, and in high school in Bulgaria I got good grades. But in the winter, depression seemed to return in a more disturbing form. Again, I had no interest in anything, but also panic attacks and it seemed as if my imagination was shut off. I couldn't concentrate and do nothing. Another thing that throws me off balance in the first place is an unrequited love. It lasted a long time, so I told the man how I felt about him. He showed understanding. But now I'm terribly sick - seeing him literally makes me sick, makes me vomit and I remember how it only poisons my life. I had very strong feelings for him for three years. But I can't take it anymore. I'm not sure if he accepts me or hates me a little because I want to be with him and he doesn't. During these years we talk like friends. I was hoping for more and that's why I'm suffering. And now he's just ignoring me and acting weird. There is no chance for a relationship, because he does not want to, and he is much bigger than me, with a boyfriend. It is extremely difficult to forget it.
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Start treating your depression - go to a psychiatrist. For unrequited love - no one is obliged to be with someone because the other wanted. Would you like someone to harass you because he liked you so much? This is violence, don't you understand? Why did you cling to the idea that you were expecting something more? You have to get it out of your head and calm down. But first, start healing your psyche so that your life doesn't break down completely.