I Can't Find The Right Environment

Hello! I am a 15-year-old girl, open to the world, I am not afraid to express my opinion, with character. I am a scholar. I dare say that I'm cool, a pussy who likes to study, doesn't like cigarettes, running for hours, etc. But my problem is that the people around me are only excited about it ... I've been to a lot of companies, I've been among a lot of people ... and in the end I almost always come out fucked by them. When I'm friends with someone, I'm with them to the end! So ... anyway ... my dilemma is that I can't find the right people. They simply do not exist. I was with many people from different companies of my age, I was with people from 12th grade, as well as with those who have already graduated. I currently have 3 girlfriends who I know are loyal to me, but people don't take them well. My mother too. And for me this is not OK. At first I was kind of ashamed to go out with them because I had other chicks my age (through whom we met), but a lot of things happened and we became estranged from them. Then I kept going out and getting closer to the others. They show me many times what kind of friends they are, but I'm just not okay with the fact, almost everyone knows me about something bad. I do not know what to do. I have a lot of acquaintances, but it's not okay to call someone and say "since when haven't we seen each other, let's go outside". I have someone to share with. I have many good friends, but I don't go out with them often, even though we share everything. I want people to be with every night. I came across a lot of people who fucked me ... but sometimes I wonder if the problem is not in me ?? It wasn't 1 or 2 again ... but I can't explain it. The people I share with also said that they don't see a problem in me ...