I Can't Fight

Hello, Boy, I am almost 21 years old and I have a huge problem in life - I can't fight. My last fight was a friendly fight with a friend in 6th grade and he beat me. I haven't fought anyone since because I can't. Basically, there were some nasty guys who were harassing everyone and no one dared to lean on them. There were also some idiots in high school who made fun of me, and I just put up with it. Hundreds of times I imagined how I beat them all and how the whole school and especially the girls started looking at me with different eyes, but unfortunately I was left with only dreams. Because I'm weak. I am 1.87 m tall and weigh 82 kg. but I am very skinny, I have no muscles and I am completely defenseless. And lately, bad things have been happening to me. Last year, some football hooligans started pushing me at the bus stop and asking me for money. Ok that my bus arrived on time and I got out. Last month, some drunk (probably shaken) guys in a car pulled out a bat for me and a friend. If they weren't having fun, they would come down and break our heads. Lately, some random guys with apparently criminal faces have been talking to me on the street. So far, I still miss it, but I know it won't always be like that. The time will come when I will eat my paint, but I don't know when it will be, and I'm going crazy with anxiety. So far I have not had a girlfriend, I am shy and if one day I have and she has problems, I will not be able to protect her. An oriental martial arts hall was opened next to us, but I don't have the money to enroll, and it will be years before I learn, and I don't have that much time. What to do? Give advice. Please edit the topic. Last month, some drunk (probably shaken) guys in a car pulled out a bat for me and a friend. If they weren't having fun, they would come down and break our heads. Lately, some random guys with apparently criminal faces have been talking to me on the street. So far, I still miss it, but I know it won't always be like that. The time will come when I will eat my paint, but I don't know when it will be, and I'm going crazy with anxiety. So far I have not had a girlfriend, I am shy and if one day I have and she has problems, I will not be able to protect her. An oriental martial arts hall was opened next to us, but I don't have the money to enroll, and it will be years before I learn, and I don't have that much time. What to do? Give advice. Please edit the topic. Last month, some drunk (probably shaken) guys in a car pulled out a bat for me and a friend. If they weren't having fun, they would come down and break our heads. Lately, some random guys with apparently criminal faces have been talking to me on the street. So far, I still miss it, but I know it won't always be like that. The time will come when I will eat my paint, but I don't know when it will be, and I'm going crazy with anxiety. So far I have not had a girlfriend, I am shy and if one day I have and she has problems, I will not be able to protect her. An oriental martial arts hall was opened next to us, but I don't have the money to enroll, and it will be years before I learn, and I don't have that much time. What to do? Give advice. Please edit the topic. they would come down and break our heads. Lately, some random guys with apparently criminal faces have been talking to me on the street. So far, I still miss it, but I know it won't always be like that. The time will come when I will eat my paint, but I don't know when it will be, and I'm going crazy with anxiety. So far I have not had a girlfriend, I am shy and if one day I have and she has problems, I will not be able to protect her. An oriental martial arts hall was opened next to us, but I don't have the money to enroll, and it will be years before I learn, and I don't have that much time. What to do? Give advice. Please edit the topic. they would come down and break our heads. Lately, some random guys with apparently criminal faces have been talking to me on the street. So far, I still miss it, but I know it won't always be like that. The time will come when I will eat my paint, but I don't know when it will be, and I'm going crazy with anxiety. So far I have not had a girlfriend, I am shy and if one day I have and she has problems, I will not be able to protect her. An oriental martial arts hall was opened next to us, but I don't have the money to enroll, and it will be years before I learn, and I don't have that much time. What to do? Give advice. Please edit the topic. but I don't know when that will be, and I'm going crazy with anxiety. So far I have not had a girlfriend, I am shy and if one day I have and she has problems, I will not be able to protect her. An oriental martial arts hall was opened next to us, but I don't have the money to enroll, and it will be years before I learn, and I don't have that much time. What to do? Give advice. Please edit the topic. but I don't know when that will be, and I'm going crazy with anxiety. So far I have not had a girlfriend, I am shy and if one day I have and she has problems, I will not be able to protect her. An oriental martial arts hall was opened next to us, but I don't have the money to enroll, and it will be years before I learn, and I don't have that much time. What to do? Give advice. Please edit the topic.