aveite! 19-year-old girl First I want to apologize for the mistakes. I write from the phone and the words are constantly edited in their own way .. I don't know how to start my story, or rather where to start telling .. I will try to be as short as possible. In general, my life is quite difficult and I have suffered too much for my age. I will start first with one of my biggest pains. That was when Grandma left, got sick, and soon became an angel. It was fading before my eyes. It was quite hard for me. It's been 7 years and the pain still holds me. Ever since I was a child, I was bullied at school. I was just different, I wasn't like the other kids. There were insults, ridicule, and physical harassment here and there. At home, my parents did not support me in the things I do. I have been involved in sports since I was a child. One time they didn't come to my race, once they did not say goodbye to my achievements. At the age of 12, I was accepted into the National Team of Bulgaria. Again, nothing .. When I came home from a race I was always greeted with the question :, Did you fall? . "And I was holding a gold medal in my hand and I wanted to show it so much, but I didn't. I put it in my bag. The next day at school, a teacher stopped me and asked me how it went. I said we were the first, she he rejoiced and hugged me and said, "Well done." The teachers supported me a lot. And Mom and Dad don't ... From this nepukism on their part, in any aspect, something happened that is in me to this day .. There was a teacher who was very good, always smiling and behaving very good. I became very attached to her. My love became so strong, so indescribable. I loved her the most in this world. She is like an angel. I love Torkova, she even fought me when she smoked, because I knew she was hurting herself. When she was absent and sick, I couldn't find a place. You can hardly understand what I'm talking about, because it wasn't just love for this teacher, it was something unreal, non-existent. When she thinks about it, Bach is ready for anything just so she can be well.
And my soul longed to embrace her strongly and to say how much I love her. But I was a disturbing girl, I couldn't throw myself at her, like the other students. I was willing to give my life for this man. It hurt a lot that I couldn't express my feelings. There was no way ... She is a teacher, I couldn't tell her what was in my heart, there was no way to explain my feelings, because I understood them. From the 5th of April until today I live with this in my hearts ... in the meantime other things have happened. My parents separated. My mother found a new friend. My brother lived with my mother and I lived with my father. I watched drunken stories almost every night. It wasn't that bad, but the smell of alcohol and my father's slightly inappropriate behavior was traumatic enough for me. And the constant insulting of my mother. Several years passed. And one day we found out that my mother's friend had cancer. No child wants to see their mother in such a state as I saw my mother. A year passed and the man literally disappeared before my eyes .. I don't even want to remember what condition my mother was in .. It took time and my parents came together from a financial point of view.
I don't know why my parents treated me terribly. Persistent shouting, scandals for nothing. I was not a poor child. My school was great, every teacher liked me. There were no problems with me. As soon as I finished, I started working. My mother constantly keeps track of everything. When I was 14 he was not interested and did not take into account, and now that I am an adult. He remarks to me that I'm talking to my friend on the phone or that we're writing to each other. What I found in him so much and what I love so much .. I understand that I am problematic and that's why they behave like that, but as I said I am a meek person .. I finished school with very good results .. I was often absent from school because of competitions, diseases, etc .. At the matriculation exams bach 2nd in the class, and in principle, those excellent students with good grades got 4s with transcription, and I was with 5.
5 without transcribing a single task. At the second matura, for which no one was preparing for us again I was with 5. Nobody told me 1 well done .. And they are happy with my brother's 3s. And don't think I'm jealous. It's just funny to me. I have other personal problems, but I am not told about them. I'm so fed up that I long for something to happen and die. I've wanted this since I was little. When I had a birthday, I wished I could die when I blew out the candle. And I was but 11-12 .. I had 1 unsuccessful attempt, but a friend saved me .. Our people did not understand .. And even if they did, they would hardly care ..
And without that, they constantly tell me that I am an obstacle. Just get on my feet and I'll get out of there. I don't know how much you understand me, but I really can't stand it And even if they did, they would hardly care ... And without that, they keep telling me that I am an obstacle. Just get on my feet and I'll get out of there. I don't know how much you understand me, but I really can't stand it And even if they did, they would hardly care ... And without that, they keep telling me that I am an obstacle. Just get on my feet and I'll get out of there. I don't know how much you understand me, but I really can't stand it
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Set aside money, I looked for the opportunity to separate. You are an adult now, so take this step, because the longer you are in this situation, the worse for yourself. I understand what you went through, as if you were writing about me. None of my successes were reflected, neither in school, nor in the performances on the music scene. So over the years I was crushed that I just believed that I was not good for anything. Which is obviously not the case, because at school, at university, at work - I received praise everywhere, only at home a big nothing.