Hi! I'm a girl. I'm 15 years old, and this isn't just another teenage burst of hormones, no matter how much a child seems to give up everything. My father died on Dec 27, 2019. My mother and I are separated, I lived with him, and one day I just come home and he's gone... a familiar cop came, where my first thought was that I hadn't done something because he was looking for a parent. he asks if my mother is here, am I alone right now, and she's gone, saying not to worry. I even heard the ambulance, and it became clear to me... but internally, I hoped I'd done some, and everything was fine. Before my mother came, another person told me that he had died and all your numbness I didn't want and I couldn't believe it and understood it.. the guy's just on his way to the store and... I said, "See you tonight." yes, I saw it, but not the way I want... I felt something strange, so I decided to come home early... I've felt it somehow I can't explain it. Maybe if I was there, it wouldn't have happened... I'm not a person who shows his emotions... load someone as wrong as it is, no. At first, I somehow couldn't believe it, I was reading everything about it... I usually do music go to competitions and so on... I sang, and it all reminds you that it's not related to such a loss... I was able to control my emotions, but I can't control my emotions anymore, and I want to be together. but to some extent, I don't have the courage to reach out... I don't even have the courage... I know life is ahead of me and I'm not going to be here.
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drizzling_rain answered · June 03, 2020
How do you know you're going to be together in that world, what if there's no world?
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bigdicljuiy98566 answered · June 03, 2020
Like you said life is in front of you, there's pain, and it won't be the last thing you're going to experience, but it's all gone and it's all worth it when you live and do what you want.. his freedom is the mother, release his feelings is nothing big and I am so, whatever he has I keep it to myself roar, it's terrible reflected me quite a lot, mentally I collapsed.. You don't burden anyone like this just people are made to help each other and listen to someone talk to someone you're going to feel better about.There's no point in suicide someday, everything will be fine and you won't have seen that..
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hungcoloradohippie answered · June 03, 2020
You're a sensible girl, look philosophically at life, one day everyone goes out of this world, and you and everyone else will go to your father. Then you'il be together forever. And you know, it's just your body, your father's spirit is all around you, and it always will be. For man, it's a more important soul, that's how we differ from animals, we have the strongest soul. Live your life peacefully, your father's spirit will always be there for you and watch over you! More often he goes to church and light a candle for his father, this is the best meditation for the soul! Take a big picture of him and put it in your room, use it as an icon and so slowly time will calm you down, time heals everything! You're so fragile now, it's very hard for you, but with a little will you'il be through the hardships. Don't think about, life is ahead of you!
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evanandthania answered · June 03, 2020
Hello, author. Like you and I lost my father when I was 16. My condolences. I know how you feel. How do you want the world to end? But believe me, time heals. Life goes on. I'm sure if you were with us, your father would want you to live your life so that he's proud of you.