Hi! I'm a girl. I'm 15 years old, and this isn't just another teenage burst of hormones, no matter how much a child seems to give up everything. My father died on Dec 27, 2019. My mother and I are separated, I lived with him, and one day I just come home and he's gone... a familiar cop came, where my first thought was that I hadn't done something because he was looking for a parent. he asks if my mother is here, am I alone right now, and she's gone, saying not to worry. I even heard the ambulance, and it became clear to me... but internally, I hoped I'd done some, and everything was fine. Before my mother came, another person told me that he had died and all your numbness I didn't want and I couldn't believe it and understood it.. the guy's just on his way to the store and... I said, "See you tonight." yes, I saw it, but not the way I want... I felt something strange, so I decided to come home early... I've felt it somehow I can't explain it. Maybe if I was there, it wouldn't have happened... I'm not a person who shows his emotions... load someone as wrong as it is, no. At first, I somehow couldn't believe it, I was reading everything about it... I usually do music go to competitions and so on... I sang, and it all reminds you that it's not related to such a loss... I was able to control my emotions, but I can't control my emotions anymore, and I want to be together. but to some extent, I don't have the courage to reach out... I don't even have the courage... I know life is ahead of me and I'm not going to be here.
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