Hello. M. writes to you at the age of 24, who needs advice or just to be heard. For as long as I can remember, I have always been "different" and I have had to fight many battles. On the playground, in kindergarten, at school, at university, etc. This way of life tired me a long time ago and I lost the spark that made me laugh. I experienced so many disappointments, betrayals and failures that I lost faith in people. Now I live only day for day, lev for lev and line for line. I am a void wrapped in Versace. Depression and loneliness became my best friends. Sometimes I sleep, but more often I don't. It's like I'm cursed not to experience any of the good things in life. Until 2 days ago, I thought I had found the "right" one, but it turned out to be another disappointment. I just deleted it from my life right now without giving any explanation, and inside I was torn into thousands of pieces. The pain was terrible. I'd rather be knocked down with a knee in my head and then have my arm torn off with an arm bar than have to feel that feeling again. Anyway ... and that's what I went through.
Why am I not like the others? So to accept betrayals, to forgive, to be soft, to be frivolous, to make compromises, to listen to chalga, to drink nasty alcohol, to take down stars and to drool. I can't be like that ... my principles don't allow it. I am clearly doomed to loneliness and pain for life. It is good that my business and training have ended my suffering so far. Even the fact that I have been the head of the family since I was 15 and without me they will not be able to cope in life would not stop me from doing so. Very selfish of me. Over the years, I realized that serious people have no right to happiness. How not to shake? How not to fight? How to trust people? How to sleep? How not to be lonely? Unfortunately, there is no way ... I am sorry for my complaint and I know that there are people with much more serious problems than mine, but there is simply no one to share it with.
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Just change your negative attitude towards the world, because otherwise you will still attract such garbage people to yourself. You don't have to be a drunk, a rascal or a drug addict, but no one has said that you still have to be the "strong". Why don't you just start doing the things you want? Train yourself, you probably have other hobbies, and if not - find yourself, that's how you will find friends with common interests! And one more thing, yes, for friends - I have a lot of respect for people like you, who instead of getting involved in intrigue, delete the garbage from their lives. Glad you're like that, not someone * !!! And just look for intelligent people with common topics of conversation, interests, views. Such people are not usually found in bars, but rather in interest clubs, libraries, etc. There are decent girls there, not cheap rags.